I went to the practice nurse at my doctors surgery on Tuesday, just to do an asthma check because the meds they had me on didnt seem to be doing as much good as they should.
After blowing into the tube thing, she said that I was just on the border line which I was really pleased about and she said I may not have asthma and she needed to speak to my doctor before she would say anthing else. What she did say though was that I was border line copd which I didnt know anything about, I just thought yes, they can cure me.
I left it for a couple of days and then went on the internet and looked at what this illness was. I was horrified and very very scared. The alcoholic in me came up with, well I didnt suffer with this whilst I was drinking but the next thought was, yes you bloody did and would drink more to stop feeling that way.
Anyway, instead of going into the poor me's and starting with the stinking thinking, ive hit meetings day and night this week and although for a few days its been in my mind constantly, I have got up this morning without the fear and its just amazing what this programme of recovery and having a Higher Power can do. I feel quite well today.
The nurse rang me yesterday and said that I needed to go back in next Friday for more tests so its going to be a while before I actually know whats going on but I just pray every day for the strength to deal with whatever the result will be.
I want to thank you all on here too for being here and just reading and being a member on this board keeps my head in a good place too.
Hi KLT, I am sorry to hear of the asthma. You sound real good and your steps of taking care of yourself are wonderful. Your friend fear stepped in and helped you to up your game.
It is good to hear how you handled everything. Take care and keep up the great work. Rosie
I was actually shocked at the damage I've done to myself. All the years of drinking has taken it's toll on my body, in many ways. Medications "work" differently on me these days, I'm SUPER sensitive to even Advil. Since getting sober I've learned I'm diabetic, no idea how long that was going on, so I've managed to do some damage to all of my organs. Also I suffer the repercussions of things like falling down, breaking bones and being beat on by the ex. The result of my drinking has come back to haunt me ......You hang in there, girlie. Keep working that program
(((hugs)))
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Hi Doll, My Father stopped drinking for 25 yrs before he died and was in the hospital at the end of his life for five weeks. The doctors told my Mom he died from alcoholism and Mom said he was wrong because my Dad stopped for all those years and the doctor said that what had happened was that my Dad had damaged all his organs so badly with the alcohol that the damage due to alcohol eventually killed him at age 67 yrs old.
Yes it does damage we will not see for years. And some we suffer but ignore why we have ills. I do not want to die this way.
I am sorry to hear of the abuse. You deserve so much more. Rosie
sorry to hear about your health challenges, I'll say some prayers for healing and comfort. I love hearing how you have handled it by going to many meetings and focusing on your soberity and then noticing how the program works and getting some peace and serenity.
my drug of choice was weed, the damage I have done is on my lungs, so i tend to be more vulnerable to respitory problems. I find even when I get a bad cold or cough that I continue to thank my Higher pOwer for my good health because I know it could be alot worse for me, considering the risks I took while high.
I knew that I was damaging myself with my drinking. It wasn't until I had been in the Fellowship for a little while that I took a close look at what I had actually done to myself.
I was diagnosed with a heart condition last year which affects my heart muscles and their ability to keep to a natural rhythm. I'm now permanently on medication for that and I have been told that it was greatly made worse by my alcoholism. And, I was also diagnosed with osteoporosis which is also associated with heavy drinking, by some doctors.
All I can do is to keep working the program and to be thankful for the gift of sobriety.
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Prayers up to all! The great news is we are not harming our bodies any further because we made a conscious effort to heal body and mind!!! Incredible!
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Finding Freedom, it is also my lungs along with other things that I have damaged and if the diagnosis comes back as copd (chronic obstructive pulmonary disorder) then the damage is irreversible and even if I spend the rest of my life looking after myself now, all that that will do is slow the illness down a bit which is really scarey.
My drug of choice was alcohol but I too smoked weed and snorted coke, my nose seems to have been effected too, i struggle to smell anything now.
KLT- I'm sorry to hear that about your possible health problem. I too have a condition that is irreversible because of drinking. When I was at the detox center 6 weeks ago, they ran my blood, etc...I forget what it is called, but my liver functions with a slight deviation from whatever is normal, it isn't really bad per say, but a certain enzyme level is going to be abnormal for the rest of my life (I forget which one). All we can do is what we can do today. Take Care
