Hi all. Just wanted to check in. I discovered a great womens meeting. They also provide childcare. I am thrilled. THe discussion was about conscious contact with God. I am currently getting reacquanted with God. I was taught to fear him and in turn have trust issues with him and my family. Anyhow, my relationship with my HP is going better. I am allowing him to come in and do the work. It is sporadic, but I can actually feel these moments. I am working on surrending my will. I also think of all the women in the room and how I am not alone in so many ways. thanks for listening. I had a rough day with my husband and wanted to drink. Then read my ACA step book and prayed. My prayers were answered. I knew today may be tough, but I made it through. It was my first of many tests. Glad to be here and love the Face to face meetings. Thanks....
Thanks for sharing your Experience, Strength & Hope with everyone here, Surfer. I'm glad you're building your relationship with your Higher Power. It's this that has really begun to make a great difference in my life too. It's like learning to ride a bike, I think! I mean, that my God can & has worked through people. Members in recovery have held the back of my seat to steady me when I've asked until I could cycle free & in cooperation with the God of my understanding.
This has meant me learning alot about how & when to surrender my self will for 'His'. This is a continuing seeming mystery as sometimes it seems that the same problems appear with different faces but I'm coming to recognise & know these as they come. I hope you can understand my meanings without me having to be any more specific ;) It's processes I'm referring to & I think you have your own patterns you can recognise too. I'm glad you have a women's group to go to as well. I go to a women's NA group on a Tuesday & make tea. If you feel confident to do it I can recomend you volunteering your services. It's a lovely way to getting to know people better & everyone always loves a cuppa. It's a great boost for the self esteem lol
Well done in filling your time with your literature. All this is wonderful investment in your recovery. I find that my mind can slow down too the more I keep close to my program & I much prefer to have the head I have now than the racing brain I'm so accustomed to. Keep up your good work, Surfer. It gets better 1Day@aTime ~ Daniella x
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