Is silent withdrawal an expression of anger?
By silently withdrawing into myself, isolating myself from others, I show anger in a passive way. I am:

angry over some real or perceived offense.

incapable of venting my anger openly and prefer to remain silent.

afraid of an outburst of anger, afraid I'll be unable to stop.

stuffing my feelings to stay in control.

refusing to show them that they have ``gotten'' to me.

so full of anger, resentment, bitterness, and hostility that I'd rather remain silent than overreact to the situation.

blocked in my ability to be honest with others, unable to show honest anger.

unaware of my anger and even find it offensive or surprising when someone suggests that I am angry.

setting myself up for other forms of unhealthy anger expression.

not giving others the benefit of my feedback about their behavior, setting the scene for a repeat performance.

giving others the power to intimidate me.

avoiding assertive behavior in letting others know how they have angered me.

piling up unresolved anger, adding to my bank account of unresolved anger, making me more and more emotionally silent, withdrawn, and isolated.

out of touch with my true feelings, denying these feelings to others.

incapable of showing my negative side, afraid of disapproval and rejection.



What are behavioral patterns resulting from my silently withdraw anger?
When I withdraw from the open expression of anger I am setting myself up for alternative forms of unhealthy anger expression, which are often self-destructive. They include:

Binging and purging. This is the clearest evidence of my internal anger. Purging violates my person and masks my raging anger. It is one way to rid myself of anger without having to express it.

Escaping into alcohol or other drugs. I choose alcohol or another drug to medicate my anger and calm me down. I find myself consuming these substances to the degree to which I currently stuff or have stuffed my anger in the past. The anger is never exhausted and I need continuous medication to silence it.

Overeating. This is a figurative and literal form of stuffing my anger down. In an attempt to nurture myself, I treat myself to a calming friend: food. Unfortunately my ``friend'' food overwhelms me by adding pound after pound. The ``jolly fat man'' is often really silently anger.

Daydreaming. When I am angry at what is going on, I can withdraw into myself; escape into my imagination through vivid daydreams. My fantasies concern how I would like my life to be. My daydreams are of a perfect life where my enemies are punished and I succeed.

People-pleasing behavior. I find it impossible to be honest with people when they have angered me so I set out to please them. I either do as much as I can for them so that they are grateful and never anger me, or I put my ``happy, good'' face on so they never know how angry I am.

Entertaining behavior. Rather than confront my angry feelings honestly, I resort to jokes, stories, quips, or any other diversion to avoid the angry feelings and act happy. I push my anger down and away.

Pulling-in behavior. Recognizing that it is better to be invisible during negative situations, I pull my feelings in and avoid contact with those who anger me. I become more and more isolated from the anger stimulus. I pull my anger deep inside.

Compulsive behavior. Excessive gambling, compulsive shopping and credit card use, computer use, uncontrolled sexual activity alone or with others, excessive reading or any other behavior gone out of control are external expressions of the anger that I harbor silently within me.

Workaholism. Escaping into my work or studies is a convenient outlet with which to avoid dealing with my anger. Because others often reward this behavior, it is a great way to hide my angry feelings, especially if they are negative and either unattractive or unacceptable to me.

Social isolation. Fearing that I will express my anger openly if people provoke me, I find it better to isolate and insulate myself from society. Being socially isolated becomes so comfortable that I choose to be a loner, a recluse, or a hermit never running the risk of interaction with others.

Depression. This takes many forms, including lethargy and exhaustion. It is unresolved anger. Helpers in my support network prescribe ``anger work-out'' sessions as therapy for my depression and it seems to work for me.

Stubbornness. I am so determined not to let others ``get'' to me with their negative attitude that I become stuck in my resolve to withhold my emotional responses. I get so stuck that I become unable to ventilate my anger even in role play or imagined anger work-out sessions.

Wearing masks. Rather than let my anger show, I wear a mask in front of those who anger me. I withdraw my true feelings into myself, often permanently hiding them behind my masks so that even I don't know what they are.

Peace at any price. I fear conflicts so that I will do anything to cover the anger and keep the peace. Peace at any price is often my motto. I work hard at keeping my anger and that of others hidden. Unfortunately, this often causes problems; the very conflicts I try to avoid happen anyway, but I am unprepared to handle them honestly and openly.

Shyness. Because I work so hard at avoiding my true feelings (especially the negative ones) I find it painfully difficult to speak with or meet people in groups. I get so used to not speaking that it becomes harder and harder for me to even try.

Stress-related physical illness. Certain physical illnesses are directly related to my inability to confront my anger the moment I feel it. These ailments include high blood pressure, cardiac disease, ulcers, many kinds of cancer, gastro-intestinal diseases, headaches, muscle tension, insomnia, and many others.

Using denial. Because I constantly want life to be happy, pleasant, and more satisfying than it is, I often resort to denial. I deny anger or hostility against those people who hurt, badger, or anger me. I remain unable to resolve my discomfort because my denial blinds me to the causes of it.

Minimizing. It is so much easier to overlook or minimize the impact of negative stimuli in my life than to confront it. However, this attitude misleads people and clouds my priorities. My life gets out of focus and I'm unprepared to deal with reality.

Procrastinating. Rather than confront issues that might result in negative feelings on my part or others, I put off that which needs immediate attention. This just worsens or exacerbates an already difficult situation and eventually ends in deleterious results for me and others. I wind up with the anger plus guilt.

Controlling. I control the situations in my life to avoid the discomfort of being angry. I like to control people and resort to intimidation and manipulation. It isn't honest, but I think everyone will understand why I had to do it when things finally turn out right and we all live happily ever after which really rarely ever happens.



What irrational thinking leads me to withdraw silently in anger?
Avoid conflict at any cost.

Keep peace at any price.

It is better to remain calm and keep the peace than be honest about my anger.

When I am angry, someone always gets hurt, so don't hurt anyone and keep it to myself.

No one really wants to hear how I feel about things.

I never gain by letting others know how I feel, especially negative feelings.

I shouldn't show my anger.

Anger is a bad emotion.

It is a sin to get angry.

Put on a happy face, even if I am not.

Never let others know I am hurting.

The show must go on.

What would people think if they knew how I really felt?

It is better to protect others from my negative feelings so no one gets hurt.

It is a waste to tell others that I am angry.

I will never accomplish a thing in sharing my angry feelings.

Getting angry always ends up getting me into a fight.

I will be punished if I show my anger.

Venting anger is a waste of time and energy.

I'd rather be a loner than get into constant fights, arguments, or disagreements.

I've been hurt badly in the past by sharing my true feelings.

I learned the hard way to let it go, don't deal with it.

No one really wants to know how I feel.

Being silent in my reaction to anger-provoking situations is a sign of maturity, health, and social decorum.

I'd rather see those who anger me be left high and dry. They'll get no reaction from me when they mistreat or abuse me. It is pure revenge for me.

I'd rather spite them than let them know how they hurt me.

Keeping people happy is the best therapy in the world.

Why bother myself with the negative side of life when there is so much I haven't experienced yet?

I'd rather be silent and strong than outspoken and weak.

It is a sign of weakness to show others my anger.

I do more harm by being honest with people; it's better to lie.

It's better to tell a white lie to keep peace and harmony in a relationship.

I should protect others from knowing my ``angry'' side.

Put up a good front. Continue on as if nothing bad has happened.

If I'm quiet long enough they will ignore me, and I'll be able to live a happier life as a result.

What I think and feel is irrelevant and unimportant; I'll keep quiet instead.

Nothing good comes from my speaking up; I'll be quiet in the future.



Why do I tend to silently withdraw in anger?
I usually withdraw silently when I am angered because:

as a child I was rewarded for being ``seen and not heard.''

I have never seen any benefit from my expressions of anger.

if I ever get angry, I would lose my self-control; I would become obnoxious and offensive.

I don't recognize my anger.

I'm so conditioned to ignore or avoid my true feelings.

I learned early on that anger could mean abuse for me.

anger overwhelms me.

I can't win.

it feels right for me.

I get so embarrassed when I'm emotional.

I want to hide all the more later.

I'm so hurt and upset that all I can do is cry.

I refuse to let others see that they have ``gotten'' to me.

people except me to be happy and carefree.

no one would know how to handle me if I acted differently.

it is safer to keep my feelings to myself.

I don't want to deal with others' reactions.

I can't tell the truth when the truth might hurt someone.

I take responsibility for how others will react to my anger.

I protect others from the negative consequences of anger.

I'd rather exercise control.

I want to keep the peace.

I can't deal with conflict.

others might disagree with me.

no one is looking out for me but me.

I can't trust honesty.



How can I handle my silent anger and improve my life?
By assertively letting others know how I feel.

By letting others be responsible for their own reactions.

Do intensive ``anger work-outs'' on each unresolved anger issue.

I need to identify the anger I have silently withheld.

Realize that it is the root of my unhealthy behavior.

Let go of the need to control others.

Take the risk to be honest with others about my true feelings.

Let go of my sense of over-responsibility.

Let those in my life be responsible for their own feelings.

Recognize that I usually end up in conflict and pain by minimizing my feelings.

Be vulnerable with others.

Take the risk of hurt, pain, rejection, and non-approval by being assertive when I am angered.

Recognize that this is my opportunity for personal growth and healing.

Take the risk to be honest when I am angered .

Accept others' responses to my feelings.

Learn what does and doesn't work in letting others know how I feel.

Accept that I am a ``liar'' when I keep my anger in.

Make a commitment to myself never to lie again.

Take back the power I give others.

Express anger with no fear of retaliation.

Identify what others do to intimidate me.

Regain power and self-control over my own feelings.

Recognize that my shyness and isolation is unhealthy.

Take the risk to join a support group.

Open up freely about the anger in my life.

Write an anger autobiography of my life.

Take each event which has angered me and do an ``anger work-out'' until all anger is gone.

When I find myself pulling into silent withdrawal, tell myself ``stop.''

Face my anger honestly and openly.

Give permission to the support people in my life to keep me on track.

Avoid pulling away from my support group when I am angry, hurt, or depressed.