I posted this onto the ACA board as well. I need to keep going....it helped!
It was a long day. I went to an AA meeting and had a major breakdown. It was kind of weird. Not intimate like the ACa meeting. However, within the handful of people that were in attendance, I met two girls that were great. One talked to me afterword. She gave me some great advice. Then another gentleman, gave me a tip on a womens meeting. I cried about my recent binge (which is not the first) but mainly about how guilty I felt when my son at 11, said some words that were exactly my words or better yet my thoughts as a child of an alcoholic. In no way, do I want my kids to go through what I went through. I will return next Sunday. I am striving for another meeting this Wednesday as well. I found a newcombers meeting and may ask a friend to go with me. Anyhow, my ACA meeting was great too. I shared my AA meeting and also how my recent binge. I binged because all of this stuff coming up through therapy and because of other triggers. I need to not do this.....I love my face to face group. They are wonderful as so is this board. Funny thing is....most people sneak their drinks. I have to sneak in the AA meetings for awhile. Since my hubby is not supportive. Thanks and today I am sober!!
Congrats on getting to an AA meeting!! Do what you have to right now, in order to get as much recovery-talk and thinking as you can. Meetings, forums, phone calls to other AA's... whatever works.
So glad to meet you!!
Joni
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Thanks for being here & sharing your recovery with us, SGurl. You deserve your happiness. I'm proud to be alongside with you. Godbless. Keep coming back & sharing your hardwork & the fruits from your labour. It's getting better ;) Daniella x
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I am a bit overwhelmed by both programs...I have decided to attend whenever possible. OF course with childcare issues, it is difficult. I know tough times are ahead....but I will journal about my freedom for today. I feel free....Free from guilt, shame and a demon calling me----FOR TODAY. I have to keep saying that as I know the future will be testing me. I truly enjoy the ACA steps...I will be starting to work those (I already am but I am in the beginning) more and more. Thankfully they are similar in ways to AA. I totally broke down in the meeting and could not keep my head on. Perhaps this is my bottom.
Congrats on making the meeting Sgirl! And we are blessed to have you here with us! I am also an ACA but dont go to meetings about it, I feeel AA touches all my needs, but thats just me. Last week I was in a rehab and was acting out real bad and attacking people, the councelor said something to me that hurt like a knife, he said "You ARE your father!!!!" I wanted to die! The father I was given is a dirt bag and if I am like him I am very very embarrassed!! Keep coming back! We need your experience strength and hope! Lots of love to you! Allison
Congratulations surfergirl. You are an inspiration to all who are thinking about taking that first step towards a life of sobriety. I can't stress the importance of meetings , whether open or closed. You are about to build a very strong foundation, on which to build your life on and around .
Take pride inthe fact that today, you are sober !
Scotty
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If the plan for me is divinely inspired, no man shall find fault with where I am today, or how I got here.
Way to go surfer !!!! You should be proud and excited about the progress you are making! Keep up the good work!
btw, what is ACA!?
-- Edited by lani at 18:05, 2008-07-28
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