so i started using and drinking at age 11.i went to rehab after an overdose on extasy last november.lately ive been drinking and drugging with my brother who was no watch me this summer since i cant be alone because im suicidal.im hookon meth no lie.i want to get out of this trap i am an alchoholic/adict but i cant help my self ive been in and out of the program for about 8 months now.and i dont have any hope left can someone please lead me in the right direction?
Welcome to MIP. I do hope that you'll stay around.
Perhaps you could try going back to meetings. I know, for me, that without my meetings I couldn't stay sober. I couldn't get the program at first and it took a few attempts at it, so you're not alone.
Also, you could try talking with your GP and being honest about your drinking and drugging. I've found my GP really helpful and it was so good to be able to talk to her.
Please keep posting and letting us know how things are going for you, won't you?
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
I'm so glad that you went to your first meeting for a while this evening. They really do help and it's great to be with other folk who know how I'm feeling.
GP = General Practitioner (Doctor). I live in UK and not sure if that's a known expression around the world. Sorry about that.
Anyway, please keep posting here and going to meetings. It will start to get better for you.
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
I also started using at 11 (drinking at 8). It's going to be tough for you to maintain your recovery if you're living with your brother who is using. Do you have an opportunity to live with someone else, or perhaps go into another rehab and plan on living somewhere else when you get out?. Getting clean and sober involves removing yourself from people, places, and situations (and things) that you use with or about. I had to let all my friends go and distance myself from members of my family (that were drinking). It sounds abrupt but one must really go about the process of building a whole new life around getting and staying sober. When I finally surrendered to this program, after two years of going in and out, I attended meetings every day for about the first 3.5 years ( I never missed a day) and I'm still sober today. I was told that if I had several hours a day to drink and use then I could certainly spend and hour or two getting myself to a meeting daily. I really had to make a committment and work harder than I ever had on anything to get through my first year. The good news is it gets a whole lot easier every week, month, year that you stay sober and it's a lot easier to stay sober then to get sober. The first 30 days are tough, but you only have to do it "One day at a time". Good luck in your new journey.
I couldn't say it better than Dean just did. If you have any access to any type of rehab or half-way house with a rehab program in your area, it is your best shot at beginning the journey to recovery, considering the info you have just given us.
Welcome to MIP, Becka. Put as much energy into your recovery as you put into using & you won't go wrong. It is hard to learn this new way of life but the more time & energy you spend in meetings, talking with others in fellowship, picking up the phone instead of a drink or drug & reading literature the quicker you'll receive this message & give yourself time to realise & practice a life ever after. There is a new life on offer. Seize it with both hands. Know that you want to live & flourish. Stay with us here too & treasure your desire not to drink or use. I'm grateful for my own desire in this. It helps to keep me sober Today.
This is an AA orientated forum & though we can acknowledge all addiction, we share in a way that relates to our alcoholism. I hope this works for you too. It helps to keep the message strong in how we identify with each others experiences. You can join Narcotics Anonymous also for when you want to share in detail re drug taking as I can appreciate this has been a part of your journey & I know you're not alone with that. There are members here who can say the same. You're welcome in all fellowships as you need & you'll learn in time each of their traditions.
Get all the help you can. You're worth it & there is a good life beyond everything you've experienced already. Believe & have hope. Keep coming back, Danielle x
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Welcome to Mip! Youre on the right track and just keep on doing it, one day at a time!!!! It, and you, are soooo worth it!
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
It is tough to GET sober no matter what age you are. That is the simple truth. But STAYING sober is much easier than Getting sober again and again. Take it from me, I have had to start over a few times, and sometimes it took JAIL to get the motivation.
For me, People and Playgrounds are the most important things. Staying around sober people and in sober places are key to my sobriety. I am like a toddler who has had to learn how to live and walk, and I could not do that very well if the people around me didn't know how to live and walk first.
Not sure of your present age, but there are indeed places you can go where you can be isolated from temptation or persuasion, and stay in a safe environment while you get some recovery time under your belt. I know it sounds like a big change, but we need Big Change in order to survive the crisis of alcoholism and addiction. There is a saying that "If nothing changes, then nothing will change". I have found that to be so true.
I spent some time in my youth around people who were selling and dealing and using, and it was a nightmare. I finally got out on my own, thinking that I could "control" my use if I were alone to "enjoy" my alcohol/substances. But nothing changed because I couldn't change on my own. I brought my sick surroundings with me. I had to go live in a treatment center for awhile, where people could take care of me until I was able to take care of myself. The benefits have been marvelous. I am no longer suicidal, and have moved on and grown up into a life that is full of good things, peace, friendship and fun.
No matter what path you choose, I hope it is a path that leads you to true sobriety and happiness. You deserve nothing less!
love, Joni
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