"The foolish and the dead never change their opinion." --James Russell Lowell
Part of my understanding of spirituality is that I will change. I will change my mind, my attitude and my opinion. My understanding of sobriety is that I will grow, grow in an understanding of myself, grow in an understanding of God's will for me, and grow in an understanding of other people. Today I am not afraid to change my thinking about life.
During my years as an addict I was fixed and rigid about everything. I saw it as weakness to change my mind and opinions. Now I understand that I was afraid of change, afraid not to have an answer, afraid not to be seen as being "in charge".
In treatment I learned how to understand spirituality as reality; seeing things as they are, rather than how I wanted them to be. I began to accept that life is about change and that truth is a process that we evolve towards.
In my journey towards You may I have the willingness to change.
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
Part of the process in my re-awakening was to realize, I had to hand over the 'controls', I couldn't be 'in charge'. I take great pride in that I finally saw it, some never do. The only wonderful part of the job I did when I was in control, was how greatly I screwed it up.
I know the program works because I have forgiven (albeit slowly) myself for that, and have moved on.
I see a hidden , deeper message in Father Leo's words. I encourage all to find it.
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I'm proud to say I am an Alcoholic, and my name is Scott.
If the plan for me is divinely inspired, no man shall find fault with where I am today, or how I got here.
