I'm new to this. Seems like the only time I want help is when I'm drinking. When I'm not drinking, I'm miserable and depressed. Maybe this isn't where I should be but I don't know where else to go. Please help me.
Hey Lora- you are definitely in the right place. Misery is not a good state, and no one deserves to live in it. I am an alcoholic, and I was depressed before I drank, and more depressed when I was drunk. I have been sober for long enuf to reap the benefits of no more fear or guilt, and no more adding to my depression. There are many kind voices here with way more experience than me.... so welcome. BeachGirl
Hi Lora. I'm new here too. I know exactly what you are saying. I've been sober for 5 months. Day 1, I was happy I made it without a drink, Day 2 a little more of the same, Day 3, even happier. You get the point. After about a week, I started to feel depressed. There was nothing euphoric about not drinking so why not drink???? Luckily with prayer and telling myself if not every 5 minutes, don't give up..don't give up....you've made it a week, make it one more day. I've had good days and I've had bad. As of late, it's been bad. I thought I was going to fall off over the holiday weekend but I didn't. I've gotten alot of good advice here. Stick with it. By far the best piece of advice I've gotten since signing up all of since yesterday. Stay busy....stay too busy to drink.
You can do this, we all can do this. I'm working on focusing one day at a time. I'm not good at it. It took me years to become a drunk why should I expect to concur it in minutes.
I'm new to this. Seems like the only time I want help is when I'm drinking. When I'm not drinking, I'm miserable and depressed. Maybe this isn't where I should be but I don't know where else to go. Please help me.
hi Lora,
You're in the right place, believe me. Anything kind of support you need is here. We're a very friendly bunch of folks just like you - we don't judge.
Ahhhh, yes, I remember those days. For years I only wanted to stop drinking when I was completely smashed & out of control. But the next day I'd convince myself it wasn't so bad and before I knew it I was back to drinking! I remember once, about 10 yrs ago, calling the AA Hotline while in a drunken stupor, listening to a woman one the other end, writing down my local AA phone numbers and swearing to myself as I layed down that night "no more", then upon rising the next day it all somehow didn't seem so bad, so I never followed through. It took 7 more yrs of tortureing myself before I went to AA, finally to the point I was just so sick and tired of me that I knew if I wanted to live and be well it was time....Pain is a great motivator...........
I'm glad you're here, Hun.
(((hugs))))
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Welcome Lora Glad you are here and sharing. It does get easier and you do it one day at a time! Hang in there, keep sharing and hit a few meetings if you can. I never thought Id be where I am today..8 months sober!!!!! If I can do it!!!!!!!! Best of luck!
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