The chief activator of our defects has been self-centered fear. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 76
When I feel uncomfortable, irritated, or depressed, I look for fear. This evil and corroding thread is the root of my distress: Fear of failure; fear of others opinions; fear of harm, and many other fears. I have found a Higher Power, who does not want me to live in fear and, as a result, the experience of A.A. in my life is freedom and joy. I am no longer willing to live with the multitude of character defects that characterized my life while I was drinking. Step Seven is my vehicle to freedom from these defects. I pray for help in identifying the fear underneath the defect, and then I ask God to relieve me of that fear. This method works for me without fail and is one of the great miracles of my life in Alcoholics Anonymous.
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Progress not perfection.. & Practice makes Progress!
This is really relevant to what I'm going through right now. I go back to work tomorrow and I'm terrified. I'm somewhat concerned about what others will think... but not a lot. My biggest concern is that the next little screw up I have at work is going to get me fired because I've been attending a day program. I was handling this pretty well a little while ago but today and the past couple of days I've had a ton of anxiety about it.
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God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.
Hope all went well today! Serenity prayer is a great idea and say it a million times if needed!!!!
Know that you are on the road to recovery and thats all you need to focus on today!!! Dont think of screwing up!!!! Do your job the best you can and dont worry about what others think!! You can do it!
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
