I have just been released from detox for the umteenth time (4th to be exact) and was hoping I could get some encouraging words of wisdom from other alcoholics or addicts who have also relapsed more than once, but who are now living sober and happy. I'm scared to death I'm not going to survive if I relapse again....and I'm only 38! That's just way too young to say good-bye to my family and friends.
You are not alone. I was 37 and at dead ends all over the place. Had been in 2 detox centers--came out--and was right back into it again.
The only thing that saved my butt was getting out to meetings every night for 365 days, and not picking up a drink--5 minutes at a time--an hour at a time, or a day at a time. Insanity was run riot.
It took a while for the compulsion to leave and the fog to lift.
Had to get phone numbers and call them just to feel that I wasnt alone.
It wasnt easy, but then again-nothing worth while is.
Keep trying and hanging tough.
We are here for you so share with us. Another day Phil
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Easy Does it..Keep It Simple..Let Go and Let God..
Miss Lori, Welcome to the MIP site,and this board. I'm so glad you have found it. I understand how you feel about the relapses, I just want to encourage you to not give up before the miracle happens for you. I know you have heard this many times before, but we all know this is a "One Day at a Time" program, sometimes one minute at a time....and I have had to learn to stay in the here and now. If I start projecting into the future then I can get my overactive imagination going and then I can get fearful or overconfident.
I go to as many meetings as I can, I read my literature,I work the steps, and I talk to my sponsor and friends in the program.I am one of the miracles and so are you.Keep posting and reaching out.
I have to admit, sometimes I'm up and sometimes I'm down.... the thing is, I guess, that I try and do my best, and hope in my Higher Power that He'll do the rest,,, and He is. If I can't take a big Step today then I take a little one,,,, and if I can't even take a little one then I try to learn while I hold my ground so I can get ready to take the next Step,,,,, and if I can't even hold my ground at the moment and I slip then I grab hold of my Higher Power's hand and ask Him to pick me up and I try again. We look for progress and not perfection.
love in recovery,
amanda
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do your best and God does the rest, a step at a time
HI anyone or everyone,