What a Helluva reminder I had yesterday that my disease can still kill me!
Noon f2f - 12:15 I'm reading the 12 Traditiions and I notice a guy I've never seen, his hands were shaking violently then they just stopped. I've seen a few ringers before so really didn't think much of it.....I'm on the 3rd word of the 4th Tradtion & the guy lets out a horrifying scream, falls over into the lap of another member and starts to convulse. 911 called. EMT's show up, rush him off to the ER....The member he was sitting next to said later the man "smelled of booze".
We have no idea if what happened was alcohol related, if the man had a heart attack or if he is prone to seizures of some kind, all anyone knew about him was his name is Jim & someone thought he'd just gotten out of rehab.... I was also shocked at the fact that a couple of AA's, with double digit sobriety time, didn't know that withdrawal can cause seizures or kill us!!! (Where the Hell have they been all these years?!)
With the happenings going on here at home, that continue to escalate, I've started to have a case of the 'F it!". My disease is asking me 'what the Hell am I doing all this for! Staying sober, working a program and the shit is still hittin' the fan and it's hittin' hard! Why?!"
Yesterday's event was a little reminder of just one of the reasons why....
So, I think I'll keep coming back, ya'll.
(((hugs)))
-- Edited by Doll at 07:33, 2008-06-15
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
Hey Doll Those reminders are put there for a good reason!!!! I see it daily and remember it does and can get worse!!! Prayers out to you girl...Hang in there
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
Your story froze me in my tracks because that is exactly what happened to me... I was on a family vacation, at the beach... I had also been taking Welbutrin which lowers the seizure threshhold, and they recommend that if you drink heavily- to NOT stop suddenly because that can cause seizures. But I was determined to use the vacation as a sort of dry zone to begin serious sobriety. Instead, I terrified my family, and hit the most awful bottom I could ever have imagined. I was hospitalized for a week, and monitored by a neurologist (on Dilantin profilacticly, to prevent further seizures) for a year.
It seems a long time ago. Gratitude is too small a word to express my feelings about how lucky I am to have survived, undamaged... BeachGirl
