sometimes all of a sudden I feel something come over me.. like panic.. my brain screams and it goes "I NEEEEDDDDDDDDD AAAAA DRRRRINNKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" and i start quivering all over and my chest hurts me so bad and i feel like i'm choking in my neck and chest and i can't breathe at all and all my head does is race thinking "OH MY GOD! HOW CAN I GET MY HANDS ON IT!?!?" and today out of the corner of my eye.. on my utility room door.. i saw a GIANT ladybug.. when i looked again.. it was gone.. are these DT's??
one time.. the worst of all.. when i REALLY hit rock bottom.. after my mom's passing.. she passed in December.. this was in January.. anyway..
I don't get hang overs. I get alcohol poisioning.. where I throw up for about 8 hours and go into seizures.
The only thing that will stop it is another drink..
Anyway.. back to my rock bottom morning.. Hubby had to go get me some pedialyte.. I kept seeing faces of different people.. people of all genders, races and ages.. people I've never laid eyes on.. people my mind invented.. and I kept going into seizures on my bed.. felt much better after I drink the pedialyte hubby went out in the RAIN to get me (told you he was a sweetie!) all that crap stopped..
what the HELL was that?? DT's or just dehydration??
I agree with anyone going to see a Phychiatrist to find out they are having something other than alchohol related problems.
I am under a Doctor's care for Bi-Polar as well as serious physical health problems. You know after I had messed around with so many different substances as a child (13) and continuing along into my teens, young adult life, then into my adult life it does affect the brain chemistry.
My Doctors mentioned that I was already suffering from Post traumatic Syndrome, along with Bi-Polar as a child. My family was a wee bit messed up. I threw my own self meds on top of the pain to stuff down what I couldn't cope with. I am 14 yeasr SOber from Acohol you would think I would be better right? I am in so many ways. Just not in the Chronic pain department from Febro, or whatever this junk is that I suffer with.
God, A.A. SPonsorship, the Steps, the Doctor's help we are still weeding through a maze of things to try to help my Chronic Disorders. I will be going through a Bone scan on Monday hoping and praying it will show why I am suffering from so much pain.
For you it may take the same thing! Time, patience, prayer, A.A., a Doctor, therapy, what ever it takes. Pray for GOd to put the right Sponsor into your life. But mostly pray for GOd to put the right medical professional to relieve you from the hallucinations.
We need to always remember to Always "BE HONEST," so God will get the right treatment that you/we will need.
We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed and broken. We are perplexed, but we don't give up and quit 2.
Oh, I just read the part you wrote about your Mom's passing. I am so sorry!
When you mentioned drinking until you vomit, then have seizures, tremors so on. I was like that at the end of my drinking career. My seizures lasted for 2 years after I put down the bottle. I was also addicted to cocaine an 1/8 ball at a time. So I went into the hospital on many occasions for alcohol poisoning. Blackouts, all the hell you could possibly imagine I went through.
You don't need to suffer alone get into Recovery! "ASK FOR HELP."
