Hi, got any goodies on file about insecurity? Boy, I got very insecure after Christmas (and sick, physically and spiritually). THe old insecurities came out like a volcano... Needless... to say I made a huge mistake...but to make a LONG story short, maybe some things HAD to get worse before they get any better.
Trouble is I probably have more amends to make....Geez...
Anyway, since things GOT WORSE...hubby is now heading back to AA meetings. With the trouble that came to a head...I said it just wasn't working--one of us working a program and the other not. AND--he agreed!
We've had long talks about all the issues--trust, communication, feelings, etc., etc., etc.
Even though I made a huge mistake, I feel a Huge relief.
So, keep us in prayers. I just cannot say in words how I am feeling right now. May post more later.
There are as many ways to live and grow as there are people. Our own ways are the only ways that should matter to us. --Evelyn Mandel
Wanting to control other people, to make them live as we'd have them live, makes the attainment of serenity impossible. And serenity is the goal we are seeking in this recovery program, in this life.
We are each powerless over others, which relieves us of a great burden. Controlling our own behavior is a big enough job. Learning to behave responsibly takes practice. Most of us in this recovery program have behaved irresponsibly for much of our lives. Emotional immaturity is slow to depart, but every responsible action we take gives us the courage for another--and then another. Our own fulfillment is the by-product of the accumulation of our own responsible actions. Others' actions need not concern us.
Today, I will weigh my behavior carefully. Responsible behavior builds gladness of heart.
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Easy Does it..Keep It Simple..Let Go and Let God..
May post more later.