well. it took a lot of courage to do this... but here goes.
hi. my name is krystel dawn and i'm an alcoholic. i'm 22 years old. i've been drinking since i was 17. it started out with a couple beers here and there until it turned into full blown alcoholism. i've been through evulation hospitals, trying my best and only making it the longest.. two weeks, on my own. i hit rock bottom last year when my mom passed.. i then sobered up for about a week, but returned to drinking, but played it "safe" by only sticking to beer and wine.... everytime i turn around. everyday if i could get to the store (i don't know how to drive.. probably a good thing..) i hate myself so much. i came here looking for support. i hope i'm welcome here.. =/ everytime i try to get better now.. i hit day 3 and go completely ape. i start shaking really bad and sometimes i even see things. my chest hurts beyond bad. i cry. i can't breathe. i feel like i'm choking. my nights are spent on how can i get my hands on it.. where will the money come from (i've stolen money for it several times in the past) my liver is highly infected. it kills me sometimes it is so tender and sore. it is getting better as today is Day 3 of my sobriety and praise God for milk thistle.. that stuff really helps! i have wasted my young adult life being wasted.. i can't change what i did in my past and my spirit grieves for my mistakes, but i can change what i am now. i need this so bad. i can't wait until i can proudly say....
HI MY NAME IS KRYSTEL DAWN AND I'M AN ALCOHOLIC, BUT I HAVEN'T HAD A DRINK IN 90 DAYS!
Please guys, i need the support.. i can't do this on my own.. knowing me.. i may even fail all of you, but i don't need to. i'm doing it. i'm living sober.
I'm so glad i found the AA online as.. we are very poor and i live out in the country.. gas is very high.. so can't be using up that much gas. so i find comfort in i can talk to you guys.
P.S. I hope my user name doesn't offend anybody. I chose this name as whiskey is my favorite drink and alcohol has caused me great heartache and guilt.
P.S.S. This is off topic.. but i also have anorexia nervosa.. soo.. yeah. i get pretty sick =/
-- Edited by whiskey__heartache at 02:53, 2008-05-28
Hi Krystal, I'm Dan and I'm an alcoholic. Welcome to MIP (Miracles in Progress). You are welcome here. Our only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking. I realize how difficult it can be to get to AA meetings in a rural area, but, please try to get there as often as you can. Our on line group has a great bunch of people here, but everyone of us will tell you that we consider it as an aid to supplement the rest of the AA program.
Hi Krystal Welcome and a big hello.. Glad your here! Last night at my home group one member, who is only 23 and has a year now, shared that she went to buy lots of cups and creamer for the meeting. A guy in front of here had a case of beer and some other party stuff. He asked if she was "having a heck of a party?" She said, I dont typically say this to strangers but she replied, "Im going to an AA meeting" He looked at her funny and asked "how old are you?... "23" she replied..... She then went on to share with us how grateful she was to have remained sober all this time and to have found AA. She can now look in the mirror and love who she is and what she is becoming.
Her past life, while drinking, sounds pretty much like what youre going through and what a lot of us have gone through.
Like Dan says, Alls it takes is a desire....
I wish you luck,,, Try a meeting and perhaps someone lives near you that can offer you rides.
A 40 some year old walked up to our young member and stated, "I wish I would have done this 20 years ago and saved myself alot of trouble and heart ache!
Your lucky, believe it or not to have hit your bottom and admit your an alcoholic!
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Hi all. I haven't been around much...because I love drinking too much. About as much as I hate it. I'm miserable without a buzz and miserable with one. (I sound like an Alanis Morissette song...hey, there could be money in that. :))
I'm stalling. I know I have a problem, but I don't want to give it up. After partying socially for a good part of my life, I'm now somewhat of a loner...and I like it this way. Of course there's that whole silly thing of needing an income to make a living... I'm so close to losing that, and so close to saying f'it.
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Welcome- my niece got sober when she was 16 after 2 years of pot, extasy and alcohol. She was the youngest one in all of her NA groups! but she's 22 now, just graduated college and is doing fine. It took me longer, and more serious "bottoms"- but hang in there, stay here. It gets better. BeachGirl
mnstar wrote:messedup: You might want to start a thread of your own, I would like to exchange some thoughts with you but let's do it on a separate thread.
You're right, mnstar. Sorry, wh! Didn't mean to add my troubles to your thread. Wrong place, wrong time. But please keep posting, wh. We're all listening.
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There are many things that we would throw away if we were not afraid that others might pick them up. -- Oscar Wilde
mnstar wrote:messedup: You might want to start a thread of your own, I would like to exchange some thoughts with you but let's do it on a separate thread.
You're right, mnstar. Sorry, wh! Didn't mean to add my troubles to your thread. Wrong place, wrong time. But please keep posting, wh. We're all listening.
