There has been quite a change in my life, and I have the A.A. Group in Little Current, ON., to thank. They opened my eyes, gave light when it was dark, knowledge when I was ignorant, and simply accepted me for the fact that I am a human being who deserves love, respect, and encouragement, where there was none before. I am eternally grateful. I am going to share some thoughts to give you an idea of what I have learned, seen, and experienced.
If you keep your sights on God (substitute your higher power here), and keep looking up, ever walking towards him, everything will fall into place. It has no choice but to.
As my inlaws were continually shoved down my throat, the neice that was allowed to disrespect me because I'm alcoholic, and the ex who made me face it alone, all took their toll on me, I figured out what it meant. Every little item was the stroke of a bone saw cutting away the gangrenous limb from the body proper. I was finally severed, and only then did I discover they aren't doctor's qualified to diagnose gangrene, and the limb continued to survive, only through God's grace. Only then did I see the true beauty in it. I had really been set free. In one month I had stopped drinking, but knew that it had a very powerful grip on an otherwise happy, albeit troubled soul. Where there was once anymosity there is now thankfulness for doing what I couldn't or wouldn't do because of fear of being alone. I am not alone, HE walks beside me every day.
Submit to the program, submit to God. Wholeheartedly, and there are great rewards. I am far from being safe, or out of the woods just yet, but know I am on the right path. I continually seek meaning and symbolism, and finally saw I made a difference to those around me. In cleaning up my life, I have been able to clean up other areas. One place was the garage that hadn't been tidy for 2 years. 2 trailer loads of garbage, and two full garbage can's of empty Smirnoff bottles, I could see the floor again. Empties still being found today. I had help with the third load from my 9 yr old son. He asked if he could climb into the trailer to toss stuff out. The first thing he grabbed was a bottle and tossed it as hard as he could. "See you later" was his comment. And that made my day.
Who wouldn't want what we have ?
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I'm proud to say I am an Alcoholic, and my name is Scott.
If the plan for me is divinely inspired, no man shall find fault with where I am today, or how I got here.
Awesome, mstrmsn!! Such a bright and shiny share for my morning, and I thank you for that! So glad you have found what you need in AA in your area, and come back often to share with us!!
Joni
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Welcome back to MIP, Scott. Congrats on your sobriety! Your story is Awesome & I'm so glad to see you somewhat recovered from that hopeless state of mind & body. It seems you've grabbed the AA way with both hands & I'm grateful you've found some peace & happiness. Your son appears to be grateful too! Life has continued to improve for me too 1Day@aTIme & I couldn't agree more that the thanks for that is with my HP & the help I've been lavished with here & in the rooms, also, in the one to one work I've done with my Sponsor & soul searching Stepwork I've done on my own, for & with myself. The beauty of all of this is that we learn to love ourselves again like we deserve & gain confidence in learning how to love others without self~seeking too. It's all Good, isn't it! Truly beaming to have you back, Scott. I hope you'll share with us regularly as we go, Danielle x
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