Need to bitch, and then be grateful. Anyone want to join me, you are welcome to. It is all about Balance, right??? LOL
Bitch List:
Going to rain every single day this week. Sunny today, but have horrible cramps. (gggrrrrrrrrr) Back yard looks like crap. Need a meeting. Can't afford a deck yet. just paid someone $25 to mow the lawn. Husband has STILL not picked up a new lawn mower. ?????? Paid $40 to fill my tank today... a HONDA..... $40???? I got robbed!!!!! People are starving in Burma (Mayanmar) and their damned gov't won't allow UN shipments. More cramps. Almost out of chocolate.
Gratitude List:
I am sober, rain or shine. I have a home. Money is tight, but my stepsons are coming soon via plane to make me smile and laugh and get hugs!! I have a car that runs. I have a job. I have a meeting to go to tomorrow. Chocolate is right down the street.
Thanks for listening.
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Rained every single day this week. Back yard looks like a jungle. Still need to fix my hedger. Bounced a check for the first time at my local Japanese grocers where I've enjoyed shopping loyally for 15 years and immediately ran down to pay it, and they told me their new policy is to immediately turn it over to a collection agency. (I did get to point out that if that is the case, then they are essentially a mainland style company hiding behind a local name, and from here on in I'll be going to Safeway where they don't pretend to be anything but a mainland corporation) Paying $4.50 a gallon for diesel. Broke as a joke. Life goes on.
Positives:
I'm going fishing this afternoon with a buddy, hunting the mighty ulua. Fishing is always good time for me- what the Japanese call "mushin" or "no mind"- a time when I don't think, I just fish. Healthy stuff for a guy with a hyperactive and slightly unruly thought process.
TLH, I love to fish... must get out and do it soon!
And to heck with the wannabee's at the Chinese grocery. ppppttthhhtt!!!!
my day turned out great. My hubby came home early, surprise surprise, and we went to Home Depot and got mulch and worked in the yard TOGETHER, which is a completely rare occurence.
Off to play a rented video game "Cabela's Big Game Hunter".... looks like fun. :o)
No more crabbies tonight out of me....
-- Edited by jonijoni at 21:08, 2008-05-10
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1. i can't stop drinking or smoking. 2. i wake up feeling like crap. 3. i am too embarassed to ask for help in person. 4. how can I do this alone, without my kids or husband knowing. 5. i am sick of being so damn sneaky Grateful 1. i always get my kids where they need to be 2. i love to cook and make from scratch meals 4-5 times a week. 3. my husband loves me, maybe too much that he just turns his head, or maybe really does not know 4. my daughter was cheerleader of hte year 5. my son was named best hockey player of the year even though he is about 4 years younger than most teamates. 6. i am alive.
oh, time for my motorcycle ride. It gets 55mpg so those arabs (and exxon mobile) can kiss my ass