I have been in and out of AA since I was 21. I am now 35. I've only worked up to the 5th step.
What's different this time? I pick up the BB and read every day. I am working on the first step. I've always deluded myselt into thinking that my life was manageable. I have three rehabs, two DUI's, three suicide attempts, and many many dark nights of the soul to show me that yes...my life is unmanageable. Only now am I able to admit this.
74 days ago I awoke from a night of drinking. I was miserable. I knew where to go, where the soltuion lies. I've been going to meetings and still working on the first step. I am using a temporary sponsor.
The BB, the steps, the principles, the stories all resonate with me and when I walk into a meeting, I feel at home. I am exactly where I need to be. Thank you for letting me share.
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The image in a mirror doesn't always reflect the condition of a soul.
It takes what it takes Lisa. hopefully you're ready to surrender to this simple program. make some friends at the meetings. that's what I didn't do the first 2 years. it makes all the difference.
Welcome to MIP, Lisa. I'm glad you've found this forum. It's a great place to come & hang out between meetings & general busynesses. I find it adds alot to my sobriety & there have been times when I've really felt like I've had enough & this site has helped to pull me through. Maybe this is one of those different things that you will do that will make the difference. Do whatever it takes to stay sober. Go to any lengths. Immerse yourself in the Program & do whatever's suggested, for example, by your Sponsor. Good luck with her or in finding another! There's a beautiful life waiting for you. It's never too late to start over & put all that old behaviour behind you. I'm truly glad you're here. Keep comng back & sharing where you're at. The work's hard but the wages are good ;) Danielle x
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Progress not perfection.. & Practice makes Progress!
Im so glad youre here! You ARE exactly where you need to be!!!
Lani
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
Thank you, everyone, for the warm welcome! Yes, I'd say I am exactly where I need to be. And such a simple program that I've made soooooo complex. Thanks for the reminder.
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The image in a mirror doesn't always reflect the condition of a soul.
