This morning I went to my home group meeting, which I love -- they even have babysitters for the kids! As I walked into the meeting, I saw the woman who was the first person I met at my first meeting. I hadn't seen her since, until today. She hugged me, then asked point blank, "So, do you have a sponsor yet?" I said no. She then told me that she would be my temporary sponsor until I found a permanent one (it didn't seem to be optional), and that if things worked out, she'd be happy to continue on with me. She told me to go to meetings, call her everyday, and ask whatever entity I wished to help keep me sober every day, and to thank him/her/it at night. That's it. I feel so completely comfortable with her. I can't explain it. But she makes me feel like she cares for me and understands me. I feel safe. We had a long talk tonight. She said so many encouraging things, and I could identify with a lot of things that she said. As I hung up, I wondered, how did I get so lucky to bump into this woman today, and to have her offer to be my sponsor? I had resisted the idea; I couldn't imagine having someone checking up on me, telling me what to do, etc. But this feels right. I am so grateful.

By the way, deep down I know that it probably wasn't luck at all, but something else that brought us together. I'm still having trouble with this God/higher power thing, but my resistance is starting to fade. It probably has something to do with the fact that I read the "We Agnostics" chapter in the big book last night. And then, the topic of this morning's meeting was living a spiritual life in AA, and the moderator (is that the right word?) read passages from that same chapter! It was exactly what I needed to hear. Coincidence? Hmmmmm.

Anyway, happy Saturday everyone!