Well, the good old AA slogans come to the rescue once again!!!!!
I have been putting in massive hours studying this weekend, as I take my National Certification Exam next Saturday Morning for Medical Office Management and Medical Assisting. Without AA and recovery, I would definitely not have been able to continue on the path of changing careers at 36 y.o. and "showing up" for the training for a full year. Even despite my unfortunate relapse in Novemeber, AA pulled me back like a magnet, because I knew after having had some recovery that I did not want to keep going backward. I also knew the doors were still open, and thank GOODNESS for that.
This past weekend I spent about 18 hours a day studying, with breaks for laundry, meals, etc.... but I find today that I am completely beat. My mind told me to hit the books after my 5 hour class on the endocrine system today. But a quiet little voice from within said, "HALT!!!" I was Hungry. Not Angry, not Lonely, but definitely Tired. I left my scrubs on and went straight to bed for about 4 hours this afternoon. I promised myself I would come here and check in, and that I would only make a few flashcards tonight. I am NOT going to be using them tonight, just making them. AA has taught me that my body is important too. That if other people are going-going-going 18 hours a day, I need not compare myself to them... I am my own person with my own needs, and I need my rest and relaxation time for recovery, without guilt. What I am saying is that I can very easily get into mind-and-accomplishments-run-riot, fully into recovery.
I will be showing up and accountable to my homegroup on Wednesday as well, even though I have a terrific "excuse" to not go this week. I purposely signed up to set up and chair this month for that reason... to stay connected. I am really happy about how the week is going, and at 90 days today, I need to exercise caution, and not become complacent. This site really helps me a lot as well.
Thanks for listening, guys!!
Joni 90 Days
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Awesome job, what stamina and determination Joni, that is an outstanding accomplishment. Ever try meditation? It can be that "Calgon, take me away" kind of break. I'm just getting into it and hope that I can pop into that "zone" whenever I need a break. There are many types apparently and all are equally challenging at the beginning. (prolly why I've given up so many times. Anything for some serenity, I say!
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Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned. ~Buddha
congrats on 90 days Joni, that's a tough one. I think the book "Living Sober" says that we go through a cycle every 90 days with the post acute withdraw, so getting to 90 days is like nearly imposible. It took me 2 years of steadily going to meetings, just to get 90 days. Horray Joni!!!
WOOOOHOOOOO JONI GIRL!!!! So proud of you! And, Im glad your taking a break from your studies for a moment! Like Carol would say, "you deserve it!" Best of luck next week! I know you'll pass with flying colors!!!! Congrats! Lani
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
IMPRESSIVE!!!! Congrats....on all your accomplishments. Yes, sobriety makes one aware of many things. It also brings many blessings. Continued success!! Wanda
