Hi Flumpy,  Ive only been back in the programme a few days having been back out there for nearly 4 years.  Went to my first meeting sunday evening still drunk from the 2 day and night binge.  I came home from that meeting, got 2 bottles of wine, blacked out, managed to break my desk chair and woke up in bed yesterday with a huge lump on my head.  I stayed there until this afternoon where I spent the day with the dry heaves and the sweats, had to change my night clothes twice in the night.  Today I feel a little better although very weak from not eating for days.  I think we all come off it differently but I know that if I took even one drink now, I wouldnt stop until I blacked out, so good on you for only having half a bottle since Saturday.  Keep us informed of how you are doing.

Hi Flumpy,

It's good to see you posting again.

You've made a start and that's good, but you need to keep going now. Is there an AA meeting near to where you are living? I remember a little while ago you posted that there wasn't, but I'm not sure if you have moved since then, or maybe a meeting has opened up.

But, you're not on your own and we're all here trying to keep sober and help to keep each other sober, too. Just hang in there.

Please keep posting and letting us know how things are going for you, won't you?

Take care,

Carol

Hi Flumpy.

I floundered for two years, while going to meetings regularly before I was able to stay sober for more than 2 months at a time. In my "chip jar" I've got like 6 two month chips and 9 one month chips. So it takes what it takes, just keep asking your higher power to remove the compulsion to drink and it'll happen. One time I only had 3 more days till 3 months of sobriety. It was birthday, and while backstage at a concert (the totally wrong place to be with 2 months) someone handed me a burning MJ cigarette (joint). I thought for a second and inhaled only once. figured what could it hurt. Well I didn't even drink, but I did come clean with my sponsor about it the next day, figured he'd cut me slack cause it was my birthday. He got mad as hell and told me to start over and get another white chip. Then I gotta little pissed, fired him and went out drinking for a couple days. I thought if I had to start over, at least I should get drunk once or twice.

Stinking thinking for sure, but that's what happens when you're trying to figure it out. Then something extraordinary happened. My best friend, and drinking, drugging buddy died of an overdose. It was tough. He was the kind of person that had 100 friends. On friday nights 30 or 40 people would just show up at his house just to hand out and drink a few with him. I had serious survivors guilt. I had hardly any friends. Why didn't God take me instead of Ronnie? We were only 29. After thinking about it for awhile, I figured that God took Ronnie to send us a message, and I wasn't going to let his death be in vain. And out of all those people that we hung out with (all alcoholics and addicts including my wife) I was the only one that got clean and sober.

A dozen of them have died since. This disease kills people in a 1000 different ways. Keep working it until you get it.

Thanks for your share, Pete. I'm glad he didn't die in vain too. You're here now touching so many other lives with his story & I know that makes a difference. Thanks for sharing your story with us, Pete. You're truly a gem ~ Danielle

"...we favor hospitalization for the alcoholic who is very jittery or befogged. More often than not, it is imperative that a mans brain be cleared before he is approached, as he has then a better chance of understanding and accepting what we have to offer." page xxiv in Doctors Opinion.

Hi all,

Thanks for the great words of support!
Sobrityspell I'm in Mallorca, I've looked and all the meetings are finished, they did have loads but they've all gone now or their over the other side of the island, and I can't drive and other things at home prevent me from getting anywhere near them, but I'm doing good so far.

Hope it lasts!

Take Care all,

flumpy.xx

I wonder how Flumpy is doing?