'The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over & over again & expecting different results"
That's what I was doing. Going to meetings full of folks whose lives had improved so much after getting sober. Meanwhile, I'm one of a handful whose life actually got worse after sobriety. Whenever it came my time to talk it would be the same "I'm sober but my life sucks even worse now" spiel. I approach this as a program of honesty, brushing aside 'we act as if' and 'fake it 'til you make it". I stop playing make-believe a long time ago.
Don't get me wrong, I am VERY grateful for my sobriety and AA introducing me to a higher power of perserverence. My thinking is a lot better than it was 4 years ago, but nothing else has changed. My life is barely worth living and talking about it doesn't do me a damn bit of good. The same thing, over and over again.
Yesterday, I went to my Sunday morning meeting. The topic? "What successes have you had since becoming sober?" And then the testimonials started. Deep sea fishing trips, cruises to Hawaii, getting a new floor with tile from Morocco ... so many AA meetings are prosperity gospel sermons. I stood up, waved to a couple of fellow members, and walked out, making the decision to not return. I realized earlier tonight was that I had had enough. I was tired of doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
So I will not attend AA meetings anymore despite the fact that I am grateful to God and to AA for my sobriety, which I intend to keep.
LoneStar said
Oct 9, 2023
(The editing feature doesn't seem to work, so to clarify - the different result was being able to share something worth sharing, not the same old shit.
Alianse88 said
Dec 27, 2023
Pentru juctorii noi din Romānia, cazinouri care platesc cazinouri care platesc ofer bonusuri de bun venit atractive, inclusiv rotiri suplimentare, bonusuri la depunere i alte privilegii. Acest lucru creeaz condiii favorabile pentru a īncepe cltoria de joc.
'The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over & over again & expecting different results"
That's what I was doing. Going to meetings full of folks whose lives had improved so much after getting sober. Meanwhile, I'm one of a handful whose life actually got worse after sobriety. Whenever it came my time to talk it would be the same "I'm sober but my life sucks even worse now" spiel. I approach this as a program of honesty, brushing aside 'we act as if' and 'fake it 'til you make it". I stop playing make-believe a long time ago.
Don't get me wrong, I am VERY grateful for my sobriety and AA introducing me to a higher power of perserverence. My thinking is a lot better than it was 4 years ago, but nothing else has changed. My life is barely worth living and talking about it doesn't do me a damn bit of good. The same thing, over and over again.
Yesterday, I went to my Sunday morning meeting. The topic? "What successes have you had since becoming sober?" And then the testimonials started. Deep sea fishing trips, cruises to Hawaii, getting a new floor with tile from Morocco ... so many AA meetings are prosperity gospel sermons. I stood up, waved to a couple of fellow members, and walked out, making the decision to not return. I realized earlier tonight was that I had had enough. I was tired of doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
So I will not attend AA meetings anymore despite the fact that I am grateful to God and to AA for my sobriety, which I intend to keep.
Pentru juctorii noi din Romānia, cazinouri care platesc cazinouri care platesc ofer bonusuri de bun venit atractive, inclusiv rotiri suplimentare, bonusuri la depunere i alte privilegii. Acest lucru creeaz condiii favorabile pentru a īncepe cltoria de joc.