This is the first time I've read the board today. I had a misreable day, first killer migraine in awhile. Don't know what brought it on, maybe the weather changes or could be a little bit of living life on lifes terms.Stress, I keep saying the Serenity Prayer, I pray for God to lead and guide me, direct my footsteps.
Yesterday , after I visited my husband at the jail, I visited with the mother of a young man who was in jail with my husband last year and here they both are again. The only difference in her and me is she has that Mother's heart for her son, she still has the hope, that he will learn the lesson and after his time in prison this time he will be alcohol and drug free forever.That he will get out, get married, have children, live life the right way, he's 23.
I have that love-hate relationship with my husband,I want to see him stay sober, but it's for the kids and our granddaughter, it's for him.I have no hope for us, and that's okay, just to see my friend sober is enough. I know I've said this before, but I will talk about it until I don't need to talk anymore. My husband prayed before I left and it was an awesome prayer, he has a higer power, he just won't or can't completely surrender his will. His old sponsor told him 18 years ago that everyone is an example, you can be a good one or you can be a bad one, he's best at being the bad one right now.But that can change, I won't give up 5 minutes before the miracle, I pray he doesn' either.
I pray we all have a grateful sober 24.
Has anyone heard from traveling Phil? How are you doing Cheri?Doll how was the ride?
(((Hugs)))
GammyRose
Mikel said
Nov 8, 2005
Hi, Gammy.
Not a red banner day for me, either. Several business miscues at the office, augmented by my acute lack of organization today--meaning I truly got nada done. Then tonight I endured a rather embittered phone call from my ex. But hey. . .I attended a great AA meeting, had a nice dinner, and am enjoying the remainder of my day sober! I'm sipping on some succulent orange juice even as I type away.
Hope the migraine subsides, and that tomorrow is a much better day for you. I maintain, Gammy, that You are your own miracle. All the best!
M
GammyRose said
Nov 8, 2005
Thanks Mikel, That is so true, each one of us who has one day sober is a miracle, you too. I know what a miracle I am, I was one of those that had so much self to surrender to God, the baggage I enjoyed carrying around, the hurt, the blame, the confusion, I'm so glad God came in and cleaned it up, so that I could live life sober. I'm still a work in progress, no perfection here.
Sorry your day wasn't as productive as you would have liked. I'm glad the AA meeting was good.
I'm drinking my first cup of coffee this morning, thank God the migraine is gone, I've got a lot to do today, so I'd better get busy.
Have a gratful sober day !
(((Hugs)))
GammyRose
cheri said
Nov 8, 2005
Morning Gammy,
All quiet on the home front...I don't go to work til 4 today so I am spending the day cleaning out closets. My husband remains convinced that I will change my mind and so pretends that nothing is wrong. I take partial responsibility since I have barked before and never bitten, but I can't own all of it. I am trying to keep the girls in the same school at least through the end of semester so I am here for at least another month. I spend alot of time on the phone with my sponsor and working with others so I can get out of my head.
I hope your day goes better than yesterday. I had a migraine once and never want to experience that again. I pray that all your pain be removed so you can do the things you need to do.
Love, cheri
rosie light shines said
Nov 8, 2005
hey gammy.......not the greatest 24 hours for me either........i watch a movie last night about this guy who was not even the bio father of this child he *thought* he created with his live in GF....anway, he sued for custody cause he was so crazy about the kid....
i sat in my bed and i cried...i cried my heart out........"no one fought for me....i was incested...beaten....torn to pieces....and no one fought for me" was my cry......than, sobbing, i held myself and said 'ok, i will fight for me, me and my God will fight for me...and if "me and God" are all i am gonna ever have??? than so be it, but i am gonna fight for me".....
i just sat there and cried out my pain.....so the grief still is there............i am grateful i can FEEL...i CAN cry...that is big improvement over the old days...............hugs/ rosie
This is the first time I've read the board today. I had a misreable day, first killer migraine in awhile. Don't know what brought it on, maybe the weather changes or could be a little bit of living life on lifes terms.Stress, I keep saying the Serenity Prayer, I pray for God to lead and guide me, direct my footsteps.
Yesterday , after I visited my husband at the jail, I visited with the mother of a young man who was in jail with my husband last year and here they both are again. The only difference in her and me is she has that Mother's heart for her son, she still has the hope, that he will learn the lesson and after his time in prison this time he will be alcohol and drug free forever.That he will get out, get married, have children, live life the right way, he's 23.
I have that love-hate relationship with my husband,I want to see him stay sober, but it's for the kids and our granddaughter, it's for him.I have no hope for us, and that's okay, just to see my friend sober is enough. I know I've said this before, but I will talk about it until I don't need to talk anymore. My husband prayed before I left and it was an awesome prayer, he has a higer power, he just won't or can't completely surrender his will. His old sponsor told him 18 years ago that everyone is an example, you can be a good one or you can be a bad one, he's best at being the bad one right now.But that can change, I won't give up 5 minutes before the miracle, I pray he doesn' either.
I pray we all have a grateful sober 24.
Has anyone heard from traveling Phil? How are you doing Cheri?Doll how was the ride?
(((Hugs)))
GammyRose
Hi, Gammy.
Not a red banner day for me, either. Several business miscues at the office, augmented by my acute lack of organization today--meaning I truly got nada done. Then tonight I endured a rather embittered phone call from my ex. But hey. . .I attended a great AA meeting, had a nice dinner, and am enjoying the remainder of my day sober! I'm sipping on some succulent orange juice even as I type away.
Hope the migraine subsides, and that tomorrow is a much better day for you. I maintain, Gammy, that You are your own miracle. All the best!
M
Thanks Mikel, That is so true, each one of us who has one day sober is a miracle, you too. I know what a miracle I am, I was one of those that had so much self to surrender to God, the baggage I enjoyed carrying around, the hurt, the blame, the confusion, I'm so glad God came in and cleaned it up, so that I could live life sober. I'm still a work in progress, no perfection here.
Sorry your day wasn't as productive as you would have liked. I'm glad the AA meeting was good.
I'm drinking my first cup of coffee this morning, thank God the migraine is gone, I've got a lot to do today, so I'd better get busy.
Have a gratful sober day !
(((Hugs)))
GammyRose
Morning Gammy,
All quiet on the home front...I don't go to work til 4 today so I am spending the day cleaning out closets. My husband remains convinced that I will change my mind and so pretends that nothing is wrong. I take partial responsibility since I have barked before and never bitten, but I can't own all of it. I am trying to keep the girls in the same school at least through the end of semester so I am here for at least another month. I spend alot of time on the phone with my sponsor and working with others so I can get out of my head.
I hope your day goes better than yesterday. I had a migraine once and never want to experience that again. I pray that all your pain be removed so you can do the things you need to do.
Love, cheri
hey gammy.......not the greatest 24 hours for me either........i watch a movie last night about this guy who was not even the bio father of this child he *thought* he created with his live in GF....anway, he sued for custody cause he was so crazy about the kid....
i sat in my bed and i cried...i cried my heart out........"no one fought for me....i was incested...beaten....torn to pieces....and no one fought for me" was my cry......than, sobbing, i held myself and said 'ok, i will fight for me, me and my God will fight for me...and if "me and God" are all i am gonna ever have??? than so be it, but i am gonna fight for me".....
i just sat there and cried out my pain.....so the grief still is there............i am grateful i can FEEL...i CAN cry...that is big improvement over the old days...............hugs/ rosie