"We did not choose to become addicts."Basic Text p. 3When we were growing up, all of us had dreams. Every child has heard a relative or neighbor ask, "What do you want to be when you grow up?" Even if some of us didn't have elaborate dreams of success, most of us dreamed of work, families, and a future of dignity and respect. But no one asked, "Do you want to be a drug addict when you grow up?"
######ROSIE....oh this is so absolutely true.....i think maybe this is why i was so angry/ resentful about my life!!! cause i had NO choice!!!!!! i am sure when i came into the world, i was full of hope/ joy/ dreams/ ambitions....husband/ children/ a farm where i could have some of my quarter horses/ raising dogs.....AND ....i was a budding child actor...writer...when he began the REAL bad stuff........my *plans of the future* did not include 8 years of being incested AND programmed by constant insults that i was **gonna be a failure*.......that definetely was not in my *plan*
We didn't choose to become addicts, and we cannot choose to stop being addicts. We have the disease of addiction. We are not responsible for having it, but we are responsible for our recovery. Having learned that we are sick people and that there is a way of recovery, we can move away from blaming circumstances - or ourselves - and into living the solution. We didn't choose addiction, but we can choose recovery.Just for today: I choose recovery.
#######ROSIE....no, i did not choose, nor did i choose to drink/ do tranquilizers to numb my pain...become a severe codependent!! .........however i can choose to OVERCOME....i can and DID choose to get BACK my life!!!!! i am doing just that!!!! i have the disease of codependency which to me, is the root of all addictions...just my take, but it sure looks that way.....i wasn't responsible for my disease/ injuries, but i am now responsible for my recovery and i work it hard!!! almost non stop in some fashion or another.....i want my LIFE.....at any price!!!! i want to be free/ healed/ living abundently/ after recovery work, one of the biggest things i do to reverse the evil done to me is to spread hope/ strength/ love to others......i try to use this to help others....that way it puts SOME meaning onto what happend to me....the *girl/woman interrupted* so brutally.....and i too, accept that i have a disease......i can overcome it or let it defeat me.....i CHOOSE to overcome, to love me so i can spread love to the universe!!!! to share my hope/ strenght with others so they will try *ONE more day*.......so just for TODAY....i choose recovery!!!!!! thank you DONE.....
carey said
Oct 15, 2005
good for you.
you hang in there and "fight" or surrender as the case may be.
just glad to see you and read your posts.
just understanding you are human and that you did the best you could at the time with what you got. and to move on and to want to live i think is a huge thing.
cut yourself a break and keep trudging the road that is all anyof us can do.
youre worth it
soulsearcher said
Oct 15, 2005
Dear Rosie,
I can relate. I too had a childood invaded by the disease of alcohol and codependency. I mourn the loss of my childhood and I'm still trying to come to terms with the anger followed by the guilt of it. I feel cheated and then guilty. Guilty because my father went into recovery, changed his life and ours, and I dont know what to do with the anger and detest the guilt. I'm grateful for his 30 years of sobriety and grateful he introduced us all to A.A. I just never knew I would need it too. So many different issues for so many diseases that followed its mind boggling. I'm glad to see you at the other boards I dont feel so alone suffering from so many different afflictions too!
Choices
"We did not choose to become addicts."Basic Text p. 3When we were growing up, all of us had dreams. Every child has heard a relative or neighbor ask, "What do you want to be when you grow up?" Even if some of us didn't have elaborate dreams of success, most of us dreamed of work, families, and a future of dignity and respect. But no one asked, "Do you want to be a drug addict when you grow up?"
######ROSIE....oh this is so absolutely true.....i think maybe this is why i was so angry/ resentful about my life!!! cause i had NO choice!!!!!! i am sure when i came into the world, i was full of hope/ joy/ dreams/ ambitions....husband/ children/ a farm where i could have some of my quarter horses/ raising dogs.....AND ....i was a budding child actor...writer...when he began the REAL bad stuff........my *plans of the future* did not include 8 years of being incested AND programmed by constant insults that i was **gonna be a failure*.......that definetely was not in my *plan*
We didn't choose to become addicts, and we cannot choose to stop being addicts. We have the disease of addiction. We are not responsible for having it, but we are responsible for our recovery. Having learned that we are sick people and that there is a way of recovery, we can move away from blaming circumstances - or ourselves - and into living the solution. We didn't choose addiction, but we can choose recovery.Just for today: I choose recovery.
#######ROSIE....no, i did not choose, nor did i choose to drink/ do tranquilizers to numb my pain...become a severe codependent!! .........however i can choose to OVERCOME....i can and DID choose to get BACK my life!!!!! i am doing just that!!!! i have the disease of codependency which to me, is the root of all addictions...just my take, but it sure looks that way.....i wasn't responsible for my disease/ injuries, but i am now responsible for my recovery and i work it hard!!! almost non stop in some fashion or another.....i want my LIFE.....at any price!!!! i want to be free/ healed/ living abundently/ after recovery work, one of the biggest things i do to reverse the evil done to me is to spread hope/ strength/ love to others......i try to use this to help others....that way it puts SOME meaning onto what happend to me....the *girl/woman interrupted* so brutally.....and i too, accept that i have a disease......i can overcome it or let it defeat me.....i CHOOSE to overcome, to love me so i can spread love to the universe!!!! to share my hope/ strenght with others so they will try *ONE more day*.......so just for TODAY....i choose recovery!!!!!! thank you DONE.....
good for you.
you hang in there and "fight" or surrender as the case may be.
just glad to see you and read your posts.
just understanding you are human and that you did the best you could at the time with what you got. and to move on and to want to live i think is a huge thing.
cut yourself a break and keep trudging the road that is all anyof us can do.
youre worth it
Dear Rosie,
I can relate. I too had a childood invaded by the disease of alcohol and codependency. I mourn the loss of my childhood and I'm still trying to come to terms with the anger followed by the guilt of it. I feel cheated and then guilty. Guilty because my father went into recovery, changed his life and ours, and I dont know what to do with the anger and detest the guilt. I'm grateful for his 30 years of sobriety and grateful he introduced us all to A.A. I just never knew I would need it too. So many different issues for so many diseases that followed its mind boggling. I'm glad to see you at the other boards I dont feel so alone suffering from so many different afflictions too!
Thanks-Soulsearcher