Tomorrow I will leave to go to a conference with a friend I've had since I was 12 years old. I will be on the road for 6 hours, but I need this break. I am so tired from the moving, the stress, the confusion of the last few months.

I still haven't told my Mom, who I live with that I'm going. I will tell her tomorrow morning. She is going to be very upset, oh,well...I have people who will be checking in on her and my daughter is suppose to come stay on Sat. In a way I feel selfish for going but I know deep down that I need this. It has been over a year since I have taken a trip by myself, I must do this for my sanity.

I will miss you all. Please pray for me. I pray all will stay sober and have a great week-end. I'm praying for the people in Rita's path. I live in North Tx, and I'm headed north-east.The price of gas went up a dime today,$2.79...knew I should have filled up yesterday, always a day behind...and a few dollars short.

(((Hugs)))

GammyRose

Love you Gammy...have a great time. Is it an AA conference?

Drive safely,

Love, cheri

hugs and prayers for you Gammy

stay safe

see you when you get back

love ya

Wendy

Have a nice trip.  Enjoy yourself.

Mom will be Ok

Thanks everyone for the encouragement, it's morning and I still haven't told Mom. I'm 50 years old ,why do I still have this fear of her reactions. I guess that's a topic for another board, huh?

Cheri, it is not an AA thing, it's a christian conference,singers and speakers. The friend I'm going with is the one I really started my drinking career with when I was 12 years old, a big bottle of wine in the park. She is not in AA, doesn't quite understand the concept. She has only been sober and a christian for a few years, I was so happy when she turned her life around...or I should say when God turned her life around.

The first time I went to her house, when we were kids, I had to step over her Dad, who was passed out in the doorway. I have since gone to an AA meeting with him, that was over a year ago, he is 74 years old and been sober for 7 years.Miracles still happen , God uses different people and places to do His work.He's  good all the time !

Again, have a great sober week-end!

(((Hugs)))

GammyRose

Hey Gammy. You have a good weekend-just for you gal.

The rest of it? Sometimes, we are conditioned to putting others first, and ourselves second.

If we put ourselves first-then we can allow ourselves to feel guilty.

You are first my dear. You are first.

Truck on!!

Enjoy yourself. You deserve it.  You've earned it.

 Let go and let God.

Much love,

Doll