Thank you all soooo much for replying to my post.  I know WHAT I have to do. God has answered my prayers on that one. Now I need to  know WHEN to do it....  It can't be because I'm hoping he'll want to make a commitment, I know he won't. I can't make it an ultimatum,  I know what he will choose. But my heart still wishes for him to choose me........He's leaving for a shutdown soon in another state 500 miles away and will be gone over a month.  I've all ready started to distance myself from him. I'm no longer "available" everytime he calls, I no longer answer his emails right away, and sometimes not at all.........My prayers have been added to. Along with courage, I need timing......... thank you all for your love and support. We'd all make a hellofa f2f, huh!

Lots of hugs. I love you all

Doll

I just have one thing to add Jen.

Complete honesty, with yourself, and complete openness and honestly with others is the the only way to go.

Ive  had people in my past, just shut me out.- When all they had to do was --be completely honest with me, and get my complete honesty in return.

Instead-they just shut down, and isolated.

Just something --I wanted to pass on.

Hey Doll,

I am having problems wiith the computer and can't seem to read some posts...anyway...wahtever is going on, you're not alone. Email me anytime...i'll respond as soon as I can. This damn computer is possessed...or maybe I'm doing something wrong.

Love you, cheri

Phil, I understand . I wasn't looking at it from that perspective...... thank you.

Cheri, thanks girl...... you're a real friend........

Doll