HI ,

Well the title says it all. I went to the party and had one lousy beer. I convinced myself that I was just to nervous to be at this party without drinking. There  were      many more people than I anticapated.

Popped open the beer took some gulps...looked at the can and told myself ... OK what are you feeling?...are you really less nervous?...

does it taste good?....I am bigger than this can of beer!!!, I just kept thinking I AM BIGGER THAN THIS CAN OF BEER!!!

I have been feeling so great not drinking,(is whats going thru my mind)

I didnt even finish the can of beer!!!

Screw it, I want to be Happy and Sober!!!!!

Thank you to anyone who said a prayer for me, I prayed all the night before, talked to God on and off on the way to the party.

I just know God  had a part in all this.

He gave me the strenght to do what I needed to do.

oops!!!!!!!!!!

Got so excited ....hit the wrong key!!!

Anyways...Back to square one!!!!! Day 1.......Oh well, like they say "shit happens",....Beat my-self up for a-while, and its time to move on.

Have A Great Week!!!

Nancy Jo

:angel:

Congratulations on being strong!  You did well.  I hope to someday have that same strength in a similar situation.  My wife is going to a medical gathering tomorrow evening (spouses invited).  It will be an open bar.  I will instead be at an AA meeting.  I will be thinking about how I am missing out on free beer the whole time, but I hope I can also feel proud of myself for passing it up for the first time.

Andrew

Good luck at your meeting.

Free beer or.....AAmeeting?

You made a wise decision, and just stick to it. I'm not really as strong as it may sound.

If it was not for the support  we all  need (something that is readily available).....

It never would of happened for this alcholic.

Free beer, Just go to the meeting like you are planning, you will be so proud of yourself.

You have to do this for you. Just imagine how proud  your wife will be!!!!

Nancy Jo

Hi Nancy. Well-youre not alone.:) Many of us have had to trip, stumble, fall, and pick ourselves up to start anew, into another day. It just goes to prove hu, just how cunning baffling and powerful this disease, really is. and how in our minds we can rationalize, and make ourselves truly beleive that we are in control.

This step one is a big step--took this kid a long time--bouncing in and out--to fully accept it.

Didnt think that I was completely powerless over anyone, or anything. And manage my life? Yaaa-gimme a hammer--Ile manage it. DOH!

You got back here. A lot dont. We dust ourselves off, and step forward once more.

We grow through and learn by our shortcommings, and mistakes. Welcome back!!

I'm glad it only took one for you to realize that it's not what you want...that means AA is working in your life...at least the "fun" is ruined.

Now, pick up the phone, call those numbers you got at the meeting, and ask them for help. We care too much to let you get away.

Love, cheri

Nancy Jo, Thanks for your honesty, I think everyone has given you great advice. Get to a meeting, read all the AA literature you can get your hands on, and talk to program people. How it works ''Honesty, Openmindedness, and Willingness"...

You did what you needed to do and today is a new day in recovery, one day at a time.

(((Hugs)))

GammyRose  

Thanks....you all mean more to me... than you will know!!!

Nancy Jo

Hi NJ.

Good for you. Get right back on that horse........ I found something that works for me, TELL a few ppl who you're close with  & trust that your an alcoholic. It works wonders for me! You wouldn't drink in front of your AA friends, chances are you won't drink in front of those who know either.

Love and Peace

"op"