Hey all, I haven't posted here in quite a while. I have had lots of "life" issues that I have been dealing with in the last few months. Its been hard, but I have been able to maintain my sobriety and my clean time. This past Saturday (july 9), was my AA/NA birthday, 4 YEARS!!!
I actually went to a meeting to pick up a chip. I have NEVER ever picked up a chip on my actual date!!! Tonite I am celebrating at my home group- a meeting that I am chair of. Tomorrow night in the other fellowship I am celebrating too.
I have also NEVER celebrated, or really made it known about my birthdate. I always felt I didn't deserve it, why should I celebrate something as awful as having been an addict/alcoholic?? I never did understand any of it.
However this last year has had its trials and tribulations, and I actually feel READY to celebrate. I had carried so much guilt and shame I had no desire to be Proud of what I had accomplished.
I go to more meetings than ever now. I used to go because I HAD to go. Now I go because I Want to go. I pick and choose my AA/NA friends very carefully. I am always grateful to the newcomer, but I am wary too. I don't need the drama, I stay out of the "clicks", and in general I am there for anyone that needs to talk. My life is now centered around the program. I am able to work in my chosen profession (nurse) today because of how I handled myself and what steps I took to become a better person.
I just want to let newcomers know, that it does work!! you may not be comfortable with yourself or your situations for a very long time- but just take it day by day, hour by hour, or minute by minute!!!
KEEP COMING BACK LOVE YOU ALL
kim
cheri said
Jul 11, 2005
Happy Birthday...
I had 4 yrs in March & I know what you mean about being ready for celebration. It has definitely been my year of growth and change.
Glad to see you here...hope you keep coming.
Love,cheri
GammyRose said
Jul 11, 2005
Hi Kim, It's great to see you back. Congratulations on 4 years of being clean and sober you certainly deserve that chip.
Did you ever find Caduceus meetings? If so ,did it help?We have a few people here who are in health care or were, I don't think they have any of the Caduceus meetings here.
Keep coming back, glad you have kept at it one day at a time.
(((Hugs)))
GammyRose
Kim H said
Jul 11, 2005
THANK YOU THANK YOU.
Its great to be back. I still read here about once a week, just haven't had the desire to post until recently.
I did find the Caduceus meetings, and its funny because they are at the psych center where I go every day but wednesday for my regular meetings!! AND its right across the street from where I live, so I walk to them. And YES, they help tons, because it is very informal and we just talk.
Hey all, I haven't posted here in quite a while. I have had lots of "life" issues that I have been dealing with in the last few months. Its been hard, but I have been able to maintain my sobriety and my clean time. This past Saturday (july 9), was my AA/NA birthday, 4 YEARS!!!
I actually went to a meeting to pick up a chip. I have NEVER ever picked up a chip on my actual date!!! Tonite I am celebrating at my home group- a meeting that I am chair of. Tomorrow night in the other fellowship I am celebrating too.
I have also NEVER celebrated, or really made it known about my birthdate. I always felt I didn't deserve it, why should I celebrate something as awful as having been an addict/alcoholic?? I never did understand any of it.
However this last year has had its trials and tribulations, and I actually feel READY to celebrate. I had carried so much guilt and shame I had no desire to be Proud of what I had accomplished.
I go to more meetings than ever now. I used to go because I HAD to go. Now I go because I Want to go. I pick and choose my AA/NA friends very carefully. I am always grateful to the newcomer, but I am wary too. I don't need the drama, I stay out of the "clicks", and in general I am there for anyone that needs to talk. My life is now centered around the program. I am able to work in my chosen profession (nurse) today because of how I handled myself and what steps I took to become a better person.
I just want to let newcomers know, that it does work!! you may not be comfortable with yourself or your situations for a very long time- but just take it day by day, hour by hour, or minute by minute!!!
KEEP COMING BACK
LOVE YOU ALL
kim
Happy Birthday...
I had 4 yrs in March & I know what you mean about being ready for celebration. It has definitely been my year of growth and change.
Glad to see you here...hope you keep coming.
Love,cheri
Hi Kim, It's great to see you back. Congratulations on 4 years of being clean and sober
you certainly deserve that chip.
Did you ever find Caduceus meetings? If so ,did it help?We have a few people here who are in health care or were, I don't think they have any of the Caduceus meetings here.
Keep coming back, glad you have kept at it one day at a time.
(((Hugs)))
GammyRose
THANK YOU THANK YOU.
Its great to be back. I still read here about once a week, just haven't had the desire to post until recently.
I did find the Caduceus meetings, and its funny because they are at the psych center where I go every day but wednesday for my regular meetings!! AND its right across the street from where I live, so I walk to them. And YES, they help tons, because it is very informal and we just talk.
thanks again
kim