I have an hour before I have to leave for my very first meeting. And I'm terrified. My mind keeps saying " This really means I can't drink ever again. This really means I AM an alcoholic.  Where will I go now, who will be my friends, what will I do with my free time, cuz doing anything always involved drinking......"  I've never faced my demons head on, I've always supressed them with alcohol. Do I really want to do this? YES, yes, I do! My life is forever changed at this moment and I know I can do this.  But I'm scared as Hell.........I chose the name Old Pro for 2 reasons 1)I'm an old pro at drinking and more important 2) I want to be an old pro at staying sober....... thanks for everyone's post, suggestions and support....... I'll let you know how it goes.....

As I'm reading your post I'm praying that you got to the meeting...You will find a whole family of people that love and care about you for one reason...you are alcoholic and need other alcoholics around you. We care about you...you can stay sober. You don't have to drink.

I read your post down below...go to the fridge and pour that beer out right now. If you don't want to touch it, have your son do it for you or call someone over to do it for you. Do it right now, before you forget why you don't want to drink again.

Let us know haw you're doing. This is a great place to share experience, strength and hope.

Love, cheri