Why do we fight? --well-I dont know about you but I never did take or read directions and follow them.:) on anything.
Ile do this my way!!
With this kid, it was self centeredness, self will, stubborness--Im smarter
than you guys are--Ile fix it myself-Im not getting humble-big ego-there is no God-Im not
asking for help from anyone or thatll make me weak-nothing wrong with me--its the rest of you guys,
that are a bit off key-self-self-self-me-me-me-what would people think? Noone feels like I do.
And Surrender? Never surrendered to anything in my life. I could be barely twitchin, and Ide still be fighting inside.
With this voice saying "You give up yet?"
Nope--fight to the bitter end. And admit it when Im wrong? oh God!! thats another story!! hahaha ---me wrong? nawww-I wouldnt be here if it wasnt for people, places and things, screwing me up.:)
Well-Im still putting horse linamint, on all the bruises.
Better today.:) Have a good night Cheri. um-you have a birthday--me thinks--comming up in a few days.
wantneeda said
Jun 5, 2005
(((Cheri)))
You're in my thoughts and prayers my friend!!!
I did read your reply on Gammy's thread
The work never stops does it...
keep on keepin' on!
Phil?...you rock!!!
\\//Wendy
cheri said
Jun 5, 2005
Hi both of you,
Well, after a good night sleep things look so much easier. HALT...gotta remember that.
Wendy's the one with the birthday comin up...I'm so happy for you! I think you share the date with the day that AA was founded...June 9th right? How cool!!
This 4th is something I try to do every year and I put off this one, until my sponsor and I talked and she told me to start working on it. Thre's some stuff trying to get out and I can feel it, but there's' some fear there about what I'm gonna do with it afterwards. But I have to get it done before I go up to the medicine lodge, which is fast approaching. So it's time to get busy.
Sometimes I wish I was in my first year of sobriety again, when every thing was new and fresh. But I am not willing to do what I'd have to do to get back there, so I'll jost peel another layer off of the onion and start growing up.
Why do we fight? --well-I dont know about you but I never did take or read directions and follow them.:) on anything.
Ile do this my way!!
With this kid, it was self centeredness, self will, stubborness--Im smarter
than you guys are--Ile fix it myself-Im not getting humble-big ego-there is no God-Im not
asking for help from anyone or thatll make me weak-nothing wrong with me--its the rest of you guys,
that are a bit off key-self-self-self-me-me-me-what would people think? Noone feels like I do.
And Surrender? Never surrendered to anything in my life. I could be barely twitchin, and Ide still be fighting inside.
With this voice saying "You give up yet?"
Nope--fight to the bitter end. And admit it when Im wrong? oh God!! thats another story!! hahaha ---me wrong? nawww-I wouldnt be here if it wasnt for people, places and things, screwing me up.:)
Well-Im still putting horse linamint, on all the bruises.
Better today.:) Have a good night Cheri. um-you have a birthday--me thinks--comming up in a few days.
(((Cheri)))
You're in my thoughts and prayers my friend!!!
I did read your reply on Gammy's thread
The work never stops does it...
keep on keepin' on!
Phil?...you rock!!!
\\//Wendy
Hi both of you,
Well, after a good night sleep things look so much easier. HALT...gotta remember that.
Wendy's the one with the birthday comin up...I'm so happy for you! I think you share the date with the day that AA was founded...June 9th right? How cool!!
This 4th is something I try to do every year and I put off this one, until my sponsor and I talked and she told me to start working on it. Thre's some stuff trying to get out and I can feel it, but there's' some fear there about what I'm gonna do with it afterwards. But I have to get it done before I go up to the medicine lodge, which is fast approaching. So it's time to get busy.
Sometimes I wish I was in my first year of sobriety again, when every thing was new and fresh. But I am not willing to do what I'd have to do to get back there, so I'll jost peel another layer off of the onion and start growing up.
Love, cheri