My biggest fear would be losing my kids. There is a boy here in Australia who went missing 18 months ago. He went to buy Christmas presents for his family and was never seen again. I ache for his parents and his twin - the pain must excrutiating. The thought makes me shudder.
I don't fear drinking anymore. I trust in AA and I trust that as a part of AA I will never drink again. I can only try to offer the human race the same trust when it comes to my kids...and I don't have that same trust yet.
GammyRose said
May 31, 2005
I'm with you on this one Nic, that is one of the things I would not want to happen in my life. My kids are older so I don't think they will come up missing. It's more of a fear about one dying before me.
I don't think about it often. My daughter and her husband had a stillborn baby girl ,Maya Rose, 5 years ago, and the pain was almost unbearable for me as the grandmother. I can't even begin to imagine how my kids felt, but I have watched them pull closer together and to God through it, so I know I could bear anything.
That's what's great about living life one day at a time, you don't have to fear so much if you live in the here and now.
(((Hugs)))
GammyRose
Phil said
May 31, 2005
My biggest fear girls, is looking in the mirror each morning.:) God!! Ive broken a lot of mirrors!!
There are some mornings I frighten the hell out of myself. hahaha Truck on!!
cheri said
May 31, 2005
My biggest fear...losing what I have now. I have done alot of damage to others with my drinking and selfish behaviours. It took lots of time to get back what I have now, and I still work to right the wrongs. Today I have people that trust me when I say I'm going to do something, but it would be easy to lose that trust again. Today I have people that I can truly call on when I need them, but they would go away if I started up again. And I would lose who I am today...so for today, I won't go there.
Love, cheri
Hanuman said
May 31, 2005
When I die, I'd like to go peacefully, in my sleep, like my Grandfather did. Not screaming in terror like the passengers in his car.
(Deep Thoughts .. by Jack Handey)
Nic said
May 31, 2005
That had me laughing out loud Hanuman. Very funny stuff.
It is good to recognise that there really isn't that much scary stuff out there, huh? And scary can so easily be funny when we look back and remember things we worried about. Tomorrow my oldest turns 13. I guess, it won't be long and I, like Gammy will be looking back and realising I don't have little kids to worry about anymore.
And yes Cheri, the greatest fear is fear itself. (Can't quote the dude...but I think he had it sussed).
Keep smiling everyone, I'm enjoying getting to know people. You are a good bunch.
My biggest fear would be losing my kids. There is a boy here in Australia who went missing 18 months ago. He went to buy Christmas presents for his family and was never seen again. I ache for his parents and his twin - the pain must excrutiating. The thought makes me shudder.
I don't fear drinking anymore. I trust in AA and I trust that as a part of AA I will never drink again. I can only try to offer the human race the same trust when it comes to my kids...and I don't have that same trust yet.
I'm with you on this one Nic, that is one of the things I would not want to happen in my life. My kids are older so I don't think they will come up missing. It's more of a fear about one dying before me.
I don't think about it often. My daughter and her husband had a stillborn baby girl ,Maya Rose, 5 years ago, and the pain was almost unbearable for me as the grandmother. I can't even begin to imagine how my kids felt, but I have watched them pull closer together and to God through it, so I know I could bear anything.
That's what's great about living life one day at a time, you don't have to fear so much if you live in the here and now.
(((Hugs)))
GammyRose
My biggest fear girls, is looking in the mirror each morning.:) God!! Ive broken a lot of mirrors!!
There are some mornings I frighten the hell out of myself. hahaha Truck on!!
My biggest fear...losing what I have now. I have done alot of damage to others with my drinking and selfish behaviours. It took lots of time to get back what I have now, and I still work to right the wrongs. Today I have people that trust me when I say I'm going to do something, but it would be easy to lose that trust again. Today I have people that I can truly call on when I need them, but they would go away if I started up again. And I would lose who I am today...so for today, I won't go there.
Love, cheri
It is good to recognise that there really isn't that much scary stuff out there, huh? And scary can so easily be funny when we look back and remember things we worried about. Tomorrow my oldest turns 13. I guess, it won't be long and I, like Gammy will be looking back and realising I don't have little kids to worry about anymore.
And yes Cheri, the greatest fear is fear itself. (Can't quote the dude...but I think he had it sussed).
Keep smiling everyone, I'm enjoying getting to know people. You are a good bunch.