I am 47. I started drinking at college. It got worse in my first marriage. It got worse in my second marriage, I plummeted in my third marriage, was arrested for domestic violence,my fourth marriage ended in two months, was arrested for DUI after my fourth marriage. I thought it was all under control after that. I went to the counselling and thought "as long as I don't drink and drive, I am fine". Woke up in a protective custody cell a week ago. 1pm in the afternoon.
I surrender and not only do I surrender I am on my knees to my God, this disease is powerful and breaks lives. It takes our souls and ruins them. I am grateful to my God that I am able to get the support I need. It takes TOTAL surrender, not HALF surrender, not TWO THIRDS surrender, but TOTAL surrender. Let this be my life's work. God Bless You all.
Phil said
May 29, 2005
Great to have you here Back. And yup been there Buddy.
I identify with everything youve shared.
Those feelings of "Its a dead end" I still remember, and hope I never forget the first words out of my mouth on a New Years Day, a number of days ago.
As I looked up in dispair and yelled " If there is a God, please help me" There is, and he did.
Its been a rough ride some days, but Im sober today. Havent had to go in any more jail cells and all that fun stuff.
Today I understand when others in my life or around me, talk about being lost, loneliness, stuck, dispair, dread, and fear, and many more.--and one doesnt even need to be an Alky to be there.
Got a program here buddy to a new way of life. Noone said it would be easy--but its a hell of a lot better facing it all sober, than hiding behind the bottle, and all those walls that go with it.
Good luck to you--and as the old timers told me. "Dont drink today-go to meetings--get a sponsor, and life will get better. Its that simple.
wantneeda said
May 29, 2005
Welcome!!!
yes sir!! this disease is powerful, cunning, baffling and patient!!!
livng sober is a freedom i've never known till this last almost year...i'll be clean and sober for 1 year on june 9th. AA has taught me how. I too surrender, i have to do it every day...sometimes more than once a day
so glad you found your way here, keep coming baCK!!!
I am 47. I started drinking at college. It got worse in my first marriage. It got worse in my second marriage, I plummeted in my third marriage, was arrested for domestic violence,my fourth marriage ended in two months, was arrested for DUI after my fourth marriage. I thought it was all under control after that. I went to the counselling and thought "as long as I don't drink and drive, I am fine". Woke up in a protective custody cell a week ago. 1pm in the afternoon.
I surrender and not only do I surrender I am on my knees to my God, this disease is powerful and breaks lives. It takes our souls and ruins them. I am grateful to my God that I am able to get the support I need. It takes TOTAL surrender, not HALF surrender, not TWO THIRDS surrender, but TOTAL surrender. Let this be my life's work. God Bless You all.
Great to have you here Back. And yup been there Buddy.
I identify with everything youve shared.
Those feelings of "Its a dead end" I still remember, and hope I never forget the first words out of my mouth on a New Years Day, a number of days ago.
As I looked up in dispair and yelled " If there is a God, please help me" There is, and he did.
Its been a rough ride some days, but Im sober today. Havent had to go in any more jail cells and all that fun stuff.
Today I understand when others in my life or around me, talk about being lost, loneliness, stuck, dispair, dread, and fear, and many more.--and one doesnt even need to be an Alky to be there.
Got a program here buddy to a new way of life. Noone said it would be easy--but its a hell of a lot better facing it all sober, than hiding behind the bottle, and all those walls that go with it.
Good luck to you--and as the old timers told me. "Dont drink today-go to meetings--get a sponsor, and life will get better. Its that simple.
Welcome!!!
yes sir!! this disease is powerful, cunning, baffling and patient!!!
livng sober is a freedom i've never known till this last almost year...i'll be clean and sober for 1 year on june 9th. AA has taught me how. I too surrender, i have to do it every day...sometimes more than once a day
so glad you found your way here, keep coming baCK!!!
\\// Wendy