hello my name is matisa , I was dx with an alchola problem in the year 2000 and I stopped drinking in the year 2001 I have not drank since I stopped but I fight it all the time, A friend of mine says I need to go to a meeting, I don't know if I do or not, I almost feel like I can work this out on my own,, 

CAn anyone give me some advice??

Thank you!

matisa

 Welcome Matisa,I'm glad you have found this board. Have you ever been to an AA meeting before? Does your friend go to meetings?

If you've never gone to a meeting I think it would be a good idea to at least try going to a few. In the program we learn  to live life by applying the 12 Steps of AA to our lifes. It helps us not to drink, one day at a time and our attitudes change. I was sober for 6 years before I came into the program, I was on what is called a dry drunk. I wasn't drinking but I was acting as insane as I did when I drank,and I was miserable.Now, 14 years after being in the program I am sober,saner, happy,and not always thinking about not drinking.I have the tools of AA to help me and I have met many people through AA who are great friends.

I don't know why your friend thinks you need to give AA a try but it wouldn't hurt a thing to go.Please keep coming back here.

GammyRose

Thank you gammy, I have a very hard time with cylcling depression, sometimes I feel exstreamly hyper and I drop like a rollercoaster ride when it drops to the bottom...  I also use to be a cutter,, My stess level is always at the very top..

Although I manage but its getting harder and harder,, 

I will try a meeting when i can get to one, where I live its very hard fro me because I live in a small town , I would have to go to the near by city which is an hour from here and I also work full time which makes it even harder ...

Thank you

matisa

Welcome Unsure. Facing the world, and all the challenges we encounter is no easy task. And its a pretty heavy load if we hafta do it alone, in sobriety.

Alcoholics is a We program, where we dont hafta do that alone. We are among millions, that share the disease of Alcoholism.

We all share our experience, strength, and hope with each other--one day at a time. It is so much easier, fighting the war in numbers--it gives us strength.

Even if you can get to one meeting a week, you will get a feeling of " I Fit In Here"

You will likely meet people from your area also that you can be in contact with anonymously, and share and care with.

You never hafta be alone again. All the best to yu.

Hi Matisa,

I just wanted to share with you that I also live in a small town...of 15 people. We have about 7 houses and and small store to pick up mail at. The next closest town has about 1200 people, but they have a meeting once a week. If I want more than one meeting a week I drive 30-50 miles.

Anyway, there might be a meeting in your town, the best way to find out is to go to any meeting close to your area and ask for a schedule. If there's a meeting, it should be listed. Another way is to call the police dept or hospital, they normally know where the meetings are.

This board is great to go to if you need to reach out, but face to face meetings are so important in recovery. Hope you can find one...

Love, cheri

Well I almost went to a metting tonight, But couldn't do it, there are a few things going on here. first I am sooooooo shy, Im not really the kind of person That does things on their own. Secound by going to a meeting I feel like Im letting GOD down, because a few years back I gave it all to GOD and since then he has been takeing care of me, I feel like If I turn to anyone else for help I will be letting Him Down, I don't want to do that, GOD has helped me in ways that no human person has ever been able to do. To suddenly start asking human people for help scares me, Im afraid GOD will turn away from me. I will feel like I have failed GOD...

This is what keeps me going , this is what keeps me from doing the things I know Im not suppose to do, even though its very hard I love MY LORD I want to please him,,,

maybe Im confused about this subject, but its very hard for me...

as for going to a meeting in my town, that is not possible, like i said its a very small town where everyone knows everyone else, RUMORS would fly like you wouldn't belive, this town is very big on that. Especailly seeing someone going to such a program as AA becasue I am a die hard christian and everyone knows it.. I don't want anyone to be disolustioned about it and I wouldn't want those I have helped to find GOD to come back and say, OH she is a fake, look at her she is drinking,,, ect.........

Does that make sence

I feel like I must be a light for others ..

This is very hard for me,,

Godbless!

matisa

I have found that God will use other people to get his message across when I am not able to listen as I should.

Love, cheri

Matisa, I understand where you are coming from. I didn't get sober in AA, I was sober 6 years before I walked through the doors. I also live in a small town, attend church, even go to a christian recovery program, but AA has been a lifesaver for me. It has taught me to actually live the things I have been taught in church and through the bible. It has taught me the true meaning of loving unconditionally,loving my fellow alcoholic as I love myself,walking the walk and seeing people set free. I know many pastors who are in AA.The people who I go to church with know I go to AA and they have never said a thing to me about it.

Pray about it, that's what I did and Gods answer to me was Go...that was 14 years ago.

(((Hugs)))

GammyRose

thank you cheri and gammyrose !  Gammyrose, your right, but I wish I Had someone who would go with me, See I am also LD, and I have an LD in social skills, I am 42 years old and through years of haveing messed up socially Well, Im just use to being compelty and totally alone, its hard to explian,,,

I will keep on trying though maybe some time I will get up enough courage not to be scarde to death...

Godbless!

matisa