Sometimes it takes some of us a delayed reaction time, before we come to certain realizations,
and "Click" another light bulb goes off. I had that happen today. Just something that I did not
fully understand that was happening in a relationship. Was up all night searching for answers--
conveyd my thoughts about a few things in a couple emails--and a light bulb went off in my
head part way through the day, about something that I was doing wrong and didnt understand.
The light bulb lit up and I came to a realization, about what I needed to change. And not
someone else had to change. This relationship is a major part and priority in my life
I sent an apoligy email to the other person,but it might be too late--Im just physically and
emotionally sick over it. I guess all I can do is Pray to a Higher Power about it and hope that
they will forgive me for what I wrote.The last week and a half has been a real rough one in a
few areas of
my life. But at least its been a growing pain period.
Some of us are slow learners in some areas. And Im usually one who comes from the "School Of Hard Knocks."
Had another situation with medical stuff--thats back on track, thank God, that was nothing more than neglect on my part.
And this morning I had to charge an employee with theft, which Ive been putting off doing for some time.
It has not been a good day. I think Ile just retire for the rest of the day, and try to catch up on some rest.
Thanku for letting me share guys.
cheri said
May 10, 2005
Hi Phil,
Thinking of you today and sending you all my love. I've been doing the same thing...expecting my husband to read my mind and know what i want. For the past month I have been building up resentment because he's not doing what I think he needs to do. The other night I realized that whatever place he's in right now, that's where Creator wants him to be and it will work out in it's own time, not mine. But I've been a class A bitch and now I owe an amendment, which I was trying to forget til I read your post and remembered that.
Don't get sick over it...claim temporary insanity.
Love you, cheri
GammyRose said
May 10, 2005
Hey Phil, Did I ever screw-up big time , are we talking today or yesterday. Yes I have , even in the years I've been in AA and Al-anon. The beauty of it is now I reconize when I have and know when I need to make an amend. I also know that after I do it,it is up to the other person to do what they will with it.
The courage for me to change has been one of my hardest lessons to learn , it just seems so much easier if everyone else would do it my way. I have had to make amends to my husband since he's been out of the half-way house and he is having no part of it today. Soooooo I will just let God deal with it and do the best I can for today.
You are in my prayers and I read something last night about sometimes we just need to sit back and relax, and let the world revolve without us for a bit. How is that waterfall my friend? Is it still there?Are there flowers blooming in Canada yet, the TX wildflowers are beautiful this year, we had a lot of snow.
Be well, and serene .
(((Hugs)))
GammyRose
ellen said
May 10, 2005
Hey buddy,
Sorry about your troubles, I hate when you get hard on yourself when you give so much. We make mistakes and why cause we are human. I am sure that things will work out.
Just reciently I had to realize my part in my current relationships and I do expect people to read my mind and I can be not be forthcoming at all. Do to ego and fear duh. Atleast we are learning and getting past things by doing better or saying sorry. THANK GOD
I love you and hope all the best for you and yours
Sometimes it takes some of us a delayed reaction time, before we come to certain realizations,
and "Click" another light bulb goes off. I had that happen today. Just something that I did not
fully understand that was happening in a relationship. Was up all night searching for answers--
conveyd my thoughts about a few things in a couple emails--and a light bulb went off in my
head part way through the day, about something that I was doing wrong and didnt understand.
The light bulb lit up and I came to a realization, about what I needed to change. And not
someone else had to change. This relationship is a major part and priority in my life
I sent an apoligy email to the other person,but it might be too late--Im just physically and
emotionally sick over it. I guess all I can do is Pray to a Higher Power about it and hope that
they will forgive me for what I wrote.The last week and a half has been a real rough one in a
few areas of
my life. But at least its been a growing pain period.
Some of us are slow learners in some areas. And Im usually one who comes from the "School Of Hard Knocks."
Had another situation with medical stuff--thats back on track, thank God, that was nothing more than neglect on my part.
And this morning I had to charge an employee with theft, which Ive been putting off doing for some time.
It has not been a good day. I think Ile just retire for the rest of the day, and try to catch up on some rest.
Thanku for letting me share guys.
Hi Phil,
Thinking of you today and sending you all my love. I've been doing the same thing...expecting my husband to read my mind and know what i want. For the past month I have been building up resentment because he's not doing what I think he needs to do. The other night I realized that whatever place he's in right now, that's where Creator wants him to be and it will work out in it's own time, not mine. But I've been a class A bitch and now I owe an amendment, which I was trying to forget til I read your post and remembered that.
Don't get sick over it...claim temporary insanity.
Love you, cheri
Hey Phil, Did I ever screw-up big time , are we talking today or yesterday. Yes I have , even in the years I've been in AA and Al-anon. The beauty of it is now I reconize when I have and know when I need to make an amend. I also know that after I do it,it is up to the other person to do what they will with it.
The courage for me to change has been one of my hardest lessons to learn , it just seems so much easier if everyone else would do it my way. I have had to make amends to my husband since he's been out of the half-way house and he is having no part of it today. Soooooo I will just let God deal with it and do the best I can for today.
You are in my prayers and I read something last night about sometimes we just need to sit back and relax, and let the world revolve without us for a bit. How is that waterfall my friend? Is it still there?Are there flowers blooming in Canada yet, the TX wildflowers are beautiful this year, we had a lot of snow.
Be well, and serene .
(((Hugs)))
GammyRose
Hey buddy,
Sorry about your troubles, I hate when you get hard on yourself when you give so much. We make mistakes and why cause we are human. I am sure that things will work out.
Just reciently I had to realize my part in my current relationships and I do expect people to read my mind and I can be not be forthcoming at all. Do to ego and fear duh. Atleast we are learning and getting past things by doing better or saying sorry. THANK GOD
I love you and hope all the best for you and yours