An oldtimer told me once "If you take in an AA meeting every night, itll spoil your drinking."

I used to go to AA meetings drunk, hungover, sober, drunk hungover, sober, --it was a viscious cycle. Somewhere along the line, when Ide lost everything there was to loose, I surrendered to the fact that no matter what happened today, I WAS NOT going to pick up a drink. It took this kid a number of days before that was perfected, but it happened. The days started to add up.

And as has been mentioned all yu gotta do is try. All our freinds on this board are the ones that made it. You can too. Keep trying my freind.

You gotta surrender to win!!  We love yu. Keep comming back!!

yup,,,acceptance is the key my friend...how??  honestly, openminded...and willingness.

Surrender,,,that's what i had to do....and do and do...everyday. one day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time.

Please...keep coming back!!!!   sending you positive energy,...across the miles.

Thanks Wantaneeda!!

I updated my previous thread with some info on what is going on with me at the moment.

I had a really upsetting phone call yesterday....yes it was only about a job but it is something really important to me.  Money is really really tight and things are filled with emotion regarding jobs (see my other post).

So I just bought wine in and drank 2 bottles of it.

I am determined not to drink today.  I bought a book which arrived yesterday, called "The Thinking Persons Guide to Sobriety" and I read some of it already.  It is GREAT.  I'm reading about a man who let drinking become a problem, even though he continued to be a successful lawyer.  He is sober and is saying how he is so much happier etc.  But he did say some really good scientific stuff about drinking which certainly helps me....if I think about the damage I'm doing to my body it helps me. 

I'm going to an AA meeting tonight.  In this area we only have two AA meetings a week

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What I really want to know is, where is all of this anger coming from?

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Anger from within--directed at outselves How. Beating ourselves up. Remorse and guilt.

Used to think I was a bad person until I accepted that I was a sick person, with a disease called Alcoholism. Forgiving ourselves is a big one.

We get better by arresting this disease. The only way we can do that is by working this program daily, to the best of our ability, not picking up a drink--going to meetings-getting a sponsor-and just trying to learn a better way of life without booze. These suggested 12 steps were put there for a reason.

Keeping things simple--Easy does it-- Just for Today --and it will get better. You are not Alone.:)

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We have all had all kind of things happen to us.  AA teaches us we don't have to drink over them or because of them.  Life is life.

All kind of things come are way. Do I like all on them NO, but I don't have to drink over them.

 Stopping to drink is simple staying stopped is the deal.

Go to meetings, Travel out of your town when you can. You may just find a friend and a ride. Things will happen if you let them!! 

The last time I quit. I did just that!! I Paced around, threw up, drank water threw up again Etc. Ate lots of candy-- suffered--No booze no drugs--cold turkey. I had to, I new all the ways to heal easy.  Morning drinks -- normal-- pain killers--normal.  Know what I mean??  You have to put it down!!  AA will teach you how to live without it.

Good luck  Rick

Hi How,,, did you happen to get rid of the rest of your booze? i'd definitely suggest it!!!

Anger is usually covering fear.

When i accept people , places and things as they are, including myself then i'm open to change.

I can't change anyone or thing but myself. and i'm as happy as i make up my mind to be.

I can start my day over at any time.

Do you journal, this might help. on the way home from work last night, on th bus, i wrote 3 pages!!!  Sometimes i surprise myself. Angewr turned inward is a resentment, accept, you can;t change the past.

Todays a new day How. Don't drink!!

\\//peace

Thanks so much!

I went to an AA meeting tonight and it was amazing.  Its the second one, but this time I appreciated the things people were saying.  A woman told her story and it really hit home with me, but more than anything I appreciated her saying how happy she is now she is sober.

I remember thinking:  wow, it IS possible!

Then afterwards a guy called Tony talked to me and asked some of the women to give me their numbers and I walked out with 4 numbers all of them said just call if I need to.

Tomorrow will be difficult but at least I'm prepared for it, plus I've got a few things planned so I'll be busy all day.

Thanks all,

Goodnight from sober me,

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Yes YES YES!!!

Now you have the phone numbers, use them on the days that no meetings are scheduled. Call and ask someone to go for coffee(or ice cream sundaes) or just call and say Hi. The best way to stay in this program is to get known by some people. Then you don't feel uncomfortable talking to people you don't know.

I know how hard it is to be in an area where meetings are limited. That's why I ended up finding this board, but as much as I love being a part of this, I need face to face also. So I end up driving 50 miles to go to a meeting, but it was pointed out to me that I drove that far to findn a drink so I should probably go twice as far to find a meeting.

Any way, I'm glad you are doing it. Let us know how you arre doing.

Love, cheri

Update!  I didn't drink today! 

This is the end of my second day sober.  I was busy all day and went out this evening.

I've been eating what I want because I don't want too much of an empty stomach right now.  I've had a lot of juice!

My husband also hasn't had anything, and he has promised that we won't have any alcohol in the house.  This was one of my problems because if he was drinking it gave me an excuse, plus it was in the house.  Now if he wants 2 drinks, he can go to the local pub for half an hour or something to watch a football match... instead of buying it from the shop.   That way, I'm away from alcohol.

They reckon the first three days are the worst.  I haven't had the shakes or anything, but I have felt really anxious and in the night last night my heart was racing.  I couldn't remember the serenity prayer, so I just said over and over "God grant me serenity" and it helped me calm down fall back to sleep.

Thanks all, goodnight from sober me (again)

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