Read your response to anxiety. Been there. Drove myself nuts between depression, anxiety, and bottled up anger . Went to councelling-did 4rth and fifth steps--the whole ball of wax. Finally went to a good phycologist where I was told my body chemistry was way outa whack likely partly due to alcoholism, and health problems. When body chemistry is outa whack, everythings outa whack. Its no fun at all.

I was put on something that is non addictive, and havent had a problem since. Before that it was pure hell. What I thought was all emotional and mental, turned out to be of physical origin. Yup-I do the coffee thing too, but not as much. Quitting smoking put a  bit of beef on, but it also helped.  A good diet also helped but I binge once and a while. --ok-more than once in a while-hehehe. God--I love Boston Cream Donuts!!

I go to Alanon also, and it helps me deal with a lot of this anger, and reacting shit too. I used to keep my mouth shut, and bottle a lot of crap up. Was not good. Let myself be used as a doormat for others anger and negative stuff, and went into a depression that was worse than hell itself.

Its great to be back on track. Thinkin of yu buddy.