on a very serious note, I read your thread to the reading of the day and my opinion.

I really identified with your story,  I was teased as a kid, sexually abused, and raped (during my addiction).  I just mean to say that I need to take responsibility for the outcomes to situations. I can't let these things that have happened to me allow me make it an excuse for me to let my disease run untreated...if I was a diabetic I would be watching my sugar everyday.  (over used analigy-but true).  I must use the steps and move on.  I cannot allow the abusers to have any control, if I do, I allow myself to be victimised all over again. 

I can't say it's easy but my life isn't a lame existance the way it used to be...lemons into lemonade.

I respect what ever people need to do with themselves through that kind of pain,  I would just hope that they don't let it totally take over and they miss the life they have to live.

This is a great other way to see blame and quite natural.  But this drunk lost all rights to that word.  Nothing is all absolute.  However I need these boundries to set for myself.  What others need is up to them. 

Thanks for being candid, With respect..take it easy Nic.

Yes, I felt we were saying the same thing. The topic just triggered a little fear for me, I think... Because I went about taking so much on board, baggage that wasn't mine to lug.

But tis ok...I'm not travelling on this train alone. Nice to know that.

You have a great day Ellen,

Nic