Hello, i'm a drug addicted alcoholic called Wendy, on Saturday (providing i don't pick up that nasty first) i will be 10 months clean and sober!!!
My life is pretty much the same, a drunk-a-log, drug-a-log.................it took everything but my life. God led me to recovery and i am so grateful!!!!
I have 2 daughters, 16 and 11, i spent 5 months in detox and 2 different treatment facilities, that truly saved my brain. I am so grateful to AA and NA and the people who have crossed my path that show me there is a better way to live. That led to me to learning to love myself, that i am worth forgiveness and have found a little faith in myself!!!
My oldest daughter moved back in with me in December and my life has never been better, i do believe in the promises and they or somewhat coming true!!!
I don't think i'll pick up that first drink/drug today.........i have too much to live for!! I CHOOSE to hang on to the life preserver i've been given with all the fervor of a drowning (wo)man!!!!
I'm glad your here and what an uplifting share. Life is so much better clean and sober. The promises are true. Keep it simple and keep working the program. Please keep coming here and sharing your experience, strength and hope with us, and we will do the same.
Have a sober serene day !
(((Hugs)))
GammyRose
miller said
Apr 7, 2005
Congradulations Wantneeda.
Im a long way from ten months, but today was my tenth DAY, and with Gods grace tomorrow will be my eleventh. It's inspiring to me to read your post. I have two daughters of my own, 16 and 18.
Have a wonderfull day.
(or evening as the case may be) :)
wantneeda said
Apr 8, 2005
been kinda of a rough day.walkin home from work last night past a bar i used to frequent was pretty tempting,lots of things going on in my life right now.......My mom is really sick, been in the hospital.atibiotics aren't workin.they're going to test for cancer..........I haven't seen her in a few years and she lives 500 miles away.....money is tight.........
for a long time she wouldn't talk to me.everyone in my family just expects me to fall......
But as time went on she's come around, maybe the fact that she is sick has made her reach out.today she says she's proud of me...I'm grateful for that.
My ex has my youngest daughter , i just recently moved across the street from her school, now my ex is getting antsy and says he's going to take me to court to stop me from seeing her,......he doesn't WANT me to recover...sucks to be him.....
I don't know if it's the time frame or stress but using thoughts have been in my mind a bit lately.i really do try to see myself in my minds eye as happy, peaceful, serene and in recovery,i think if i think about relapsing its bound to happen.........
Anyway if you wouldn't mind adding my mom to your prayers i'd be most grateful...........
My life is pretty much the same, a drunk-a-log, drug-a-log.................it took everything but my life. God led me to recovery and i am so grateful!!!!
I have 2 daughters, 16 and 11, i spent 5 months in detox and 2 different treatment facilities, that truly saved my brain. I am so grateful to AA and NA and the people who have crossed my path that show me there is a better way to live. That led to me to learning to love myself, that i am worth forgiveness and have found a little faith in myself!!!
My oldest daughter moved back in with me in December and my life has never been better, i do believe in the promises and they or somewhat coming true!!!
I don't think i'll pick up that first drink/drug today.........i have too much to live for!! I CHOOSE to hang on to the life preserver i've been given with all the fervor of a drowning (wo)man!!!!
\\//peace!!!!!!
Goodmorning Wendy,
I'm glad your here and what an uplifting share. Life is so much better clean and sober. The promises are true. Keep it simple and keep working the program. Please keep coming here and sharing your experience, strength and hope with us, and we will do the same.
Have a sober serene day !
(((Hugs)))
GammyRose
Congradulations Wantneeda.
Im a long way from ten months, but today was my tenth DAY, and with Gods grace tomorrow will be my eleventh. It's inspiring to me to read your post. I have two daughters of my own, 16 and 18.
Have a wonderfull day.
(or evening as the case may be) :)
been kinda of a rough day.walkin home from work last night past a bar i used to frequent was pretty tempting,lots of things going on in my life right now.......My mom is really sick, been in the hospital.atibiotics aren't workin.they're going to test for cancer..........I haven't seen her in a few years and she lives 500 miles away.....money is tight.........
for a long time she wouldn't talk to me.everyone in my family just expects me to fall......
But as time went on she's come around, maybe the fact that she is sick has made her reach out.today she says she's proud of me...I'm grateful for that.
My ex has my youngest daughter , i just recently moved across the street from her school, now my ex is getting antsy and says he's going to take me to court to stop me from seeing her,......he doesn't WANT me to recover...sucks to be him.....
I don't know if it's the time frame or stress but using thoughts have been in my mind a bit lately.i really do try to see myself in my minds eye as happy, peaceful, serene and in recovery,i think if i think about relapsing its bound to happen.........
Anyway if you wouldn't mind adding my mom to your prayers i'd be most grateful...........
thanks for listening