To me, forgiveness is freedom. When I do not forgive, I am being a victim. I am trapped in my own misery and self pity. I feel powerless. I am unable to contribute much to other people. I blame those who I have not forgiven instead of being responsible for my own life. I waste my time and energy trying to justify myself, blaming somebody else or even blaming myself. I pretend that I cannot do anything about a situation that I clearly see needs to change. I do not be compassionate. I do not feel good about myself. I may also be wasting my money on numbing my pain. Not only does this affect me. It also has an impact on other people. How does it feel for them to be with me. Does it bring them down? Do other people feel more tired or depressed being around me? Do I enjoy that? Does it make sense to live such a miserable existence? Or would I like to FORGIVE in stead. Would I like to have some freedom, joy and power in my life. To have love and friendship? To be able contribute to others, especially those who have freely given so much to me. To show compassion to others and be a friend. I can forgive. Now. this very minute. I can forgive anybody. I can forgive myself Why wait? Do it now.

Read in the paper this week about one of the celebs in Big Brother. He was quoted as saying "I don't forgive, that's why I haven't got any friends". It suddenly hit me: aah maybe that's why I haven't got many friends left: if I fall out with someone it tends to be for ever.

Can't be the grouch or the brainstorm anymore!!  Need to make amends as soon as possible.let go, let god and forgive  I have to give it to god to handle and say a prayer.  Sometimes it's so hard to forgive.