Tonight at an open AA meeting, potluck before meeting, I felt so alone and I know it was just my old stuff coming to the surface. I sat there ,with people I've known in the program for the 13 years and wished my husband was there and sober, instead of 300 miles away in a halfway house. I finally had to tell myself to get over it and be grateful for my sobriety and the good friends I have in the fellowship, this is about me, no one else. I couldn't share tonight cause the emotions where to raw, I guess the holidays are finally catching up with me.

I think it's time to do an end of the year 4th step. I'm so glad I have a life program, that God reached down and showed me the way to find peace and happiness ,and a way to love unconditionally.

Thanks everyone for being here, thanks for sharing your experience, strength and hope, oh,yeah, and your great sense of humor.

Goodnight...

(((Hugs)))

GammyRose 

 

Gammy....   this program was never meant to make us totally selfish and self-centered. In fact it says the opposite.. that the problem is our selfishness. This is not an "I" program,,,  it is a "we" program. It is not meant to put us in denial about what is sad in our lives, but helps us to cope with what is sad in our lives. I think it is okay to miss your husband.  The thing about acceptance,,,,   accept the things we cannot change,,,  that your husband is in a half-way house.  He is alive and in recovery. Are you two making the discharge plans? that is part of changing what you can.

I am having a really difficult time right now also.  counting days since my ummm   drinking episode. Christmas is my new sobriety date.  I'm just putting one foot in front of the other. Hey, wanna take my hand and we'll do the Oz shuffle?

Remember the reason for the season...  God loved the world so much that He sent His only Son....

love in recovery,

amanda

Good morning to you both.:) Just sharing with you that Im here holding both your hands, one day at a time as we travel the roads that we travel. And I agree with Ammanda, Gammy. Its ok to feel how you feel, and we understand how you feel. As for the rest of it? Some days we trip and fall. We pick ourselves up, Dust ourselves off, and carry on with hope and faith, and we do that together. Have a good day girls. With Love

hey, Phil...   yep,,,  we got each other, and the big Hand of our God is in ours too. Follow the yellow brick road?   oh, wait..  that's another story.

I am okay for today...  still struggling, but sober.

love in recovery,

amanda

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