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my story
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I had been drinking since I was 15. It made me feel human for the first time in my life. It took away my fear and gave me an inner glow I never felt before.
Most importantly it took me out of myself.
I soon discovered that if I drank enough, I got this mystery power and id wake in the morni...
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New here
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Hi, Im Jon a 32 year old alcoholic from NJ. Last year i recieved my 4th DUI.
I'm right out of rehab and looking for all the help I can get. I hope to get to know some of you.
thanks, jon N
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Helped me in the young days
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http://www.xa-speakers.org/pafiledb.php?action=category&id=13-- Edited by Robert at 11:44, 2006-12-08
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serenity prayer - revised
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"God grant the Serenity to accept the person i cannot change, Courage to change the person i can, Wisdom to know that person is me.
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Struggling
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This is the worst I've felt in a long time. Part of me just wants to fire my sponsor, say f AA, and go it alone.
These past two nights I've just layed in bed crying. I feel so horrible. I don't really know what's causing it either. I called my psych doctor yesterday and tried to set an appointment to no avail...
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Wisdom
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"We don't receive wisdom; we must discover it for ourselves after a journey that no one can take for us or spare us" "One's first step in wisdom is to question everything and one's last is to come to terms with everything" "Life's challenges are not suppose to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you d...
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Enriching My Family
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When more love, understanding, and harmony are needed in a family, it's really a change of heart by the individuals that is needed. I pray for a change-not to change the other people in my family, but for the wisdom to realize that the only person I am responsible for changing in or am abl...
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All We Have Is Now
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All We Have Is Now
We can only live now, this moment. We cannot erase the mistakes we made yesterday or bring back the good times we had. We cannot know what tomorrow will require of us, nor can we ensure future security and happiness. Now is what we have, and now is everything.
We can fo...
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Daily Reflections Dec 8
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SERVICE Life will take on a new meaning. To watch people recover, to see them help others, to watch loneliness vanish, to see a fellowship grow up about you. to have a host of friends - this is an experience you must not miss. . . . Frequent contact with newcomers and with each other is the bright spot of our...
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Acting "as if"
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Everyday . . . life confronts us with new problems to be solved which force us to adjust our old programs accordingly. -- Dr. Ann Faraday
Facing the day straight on is occasionally difficult to do. There are those days we feel like crawling under the covers and staying there, certain that we can'...
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Quit hiding my real picture.
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Downloaded a real recent photo of me as my avatar. Booze is hard on ya man!
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Christmas Carols For The Disturbed..:)
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>* 1. Schizophrenia --- Do You Hear What I Hear? > >* 2. Multiple Personality Disorder --- We Three Kings Disoriented Are > >* 3. Dementia --- I Think I'll be Home for Christmas > >* 4. Narcissistic --- Hark the Herald Angels Sing About Me > >* 5. Manic --- Deck the Halls and W...
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(((((((((MIP)))))))))
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got a quick moment on a computer
just wanted to say hello, i miss you's and i'm doing ok
been averaging 2 meetings a day, day 27 today:)
still in a transition house but i've started looking at apartments, really my whole life is up in the air...lol.....no literally ...isn't that step 2 and 3?
wis...
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lihP yadhtriB yppaH
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Well there, if you figured that out, you can't be too old!
Have a wonder-filled day buddy...Tim
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Yesterday was a doozy
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I don't know what's going on in Justins' head anymore. Pure insanity yesterday. I feel like Scrooge. Bah Humbug! Yesterday I had either two choices to pick from. Anger or depression. Which ever one felt better. I got so pissed at work I chose to march into the head bosses office and let him know that I'm t...
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Hit a road block
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Hi everyone
Just wanted to say the hit road block, lol.
Guess it took me sometime to realize that I've road block, not drinkin though.
Guess we make some decisions that at the time seems to be the right one in sobriety, than realize it's not turning out the way it should or things don't fall in to pla...
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Daily Reflections Dec 7
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TRUE AMBITION True ambition is not what we thought it was. True ambition is the deep desire to live usefully and walk humbly under the grace of God. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, pp. 124-25 During my drinking years, my one and only concern was to have my fellow man think highly of me. My ambition in...
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A reason..A season..or A lifetime..
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People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you wi...
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lack of hope
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I was working on my ab*se workbook, and the last section was on hopes when you were growing up, and how they were crushed.. I was supposed to list 3 things that I hoped for and how they were crushed. I was only able to come up with one thing that I'd hoped for as a child - that my dad would marry this girlfriend I...
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The Simple Approach to the 12 Steps
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The Simple Approach to the 12 Steps!
Step 1: There's a power that will kill me.
Step 2: There's a power that wants me to live.
Step 3: Which do I want? (If you want to die, stop here. If you want to live, go on.)
Step 4: Using examples from your own life, understand that selfishne...
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Maintenance...long one
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"Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it."
As we work the first nine Steps, we prepare ourselves for the adventure of a new life. But when we approach Step Ten we commence to put our A.A. way of living to practical use, day by day, in fair weather or foul. Then co...
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Seeing the Positive side.
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My drunken personality always saw the bad things in all situations. No matter what, no matter how perfect something was I always found it's flaw and made it a point to do so. How arrogant is that?
Seeing the positive side of things now helps me through each day. I have learned to le...
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I'm an Atheist (Don't want to be converted but looking for help)
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I don't want to argue, but I need help. I don't want to create a god or anything so that I can rely on it, but I would like some advice from people who don't believe in god and all that..
I am not trying to hurt your board, but there must be other people like me out there who are having a really hard time and ju...
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Daily Reflections Dec 6
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WHEN THE CHIPS ARE DOWN When we developed still more, we discovered the best possible source of emotional stability to be God Himself. We found that dependence upon His perfect justice, forgiveness, and love was healthy, and that it would work where nothing else would. If we really depended upon God...
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*LOVE*
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LOVE
The Wonderful Love of a Beautiful maid,
The Love of a Staunch True Man
and the Love of a Baby Unafraid
have Existed since man began.
But the Greatest Love, the Love of All Loves
Even than that of a Mother
is the Tender, Compassionate, Infinite Love
of One Alcoholic for Ano...
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Each day provides its own gifts
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Each day provides its own gifts. -- Ruth P. Freedman
We are guaranteed experiences that are absolutely right for us today. We are progressing on schedule. Even when our personal hopes are unmet, we are given the necessary opportunities for achieving those goals that complement our unique de...
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AA and traveling
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Hi All AA friends
I am sober since August working on the programm daily, and need to start working again which I like. But my work makes me traveling a lot! how do you handele this and how do you go in new meetings? Pleas advice regards Jo
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Find Peace Inside~Higher Awareness
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Find peace inside
"All spiritual disciplines are done with a view to still the mind. The perfectly still mind is universal spirit."
-- Swami Ramdas
Getting into the habit of meditating, praying and/or resting daily helps us pull back from our preoccupation with the material world. In silenc...
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2 things at once, or is it one?
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I went to my first meeting last Monday. I'm now sober 9 days, the longest ever. I've read the big book and have been to 4 meetings. I never prayed to God but a handfull of times, and it was always a selfish prayer.
Last Thursday, after reading the agnistic chapter I clutched the book...
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Maybe Everything...
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The Language of Letting Go.
Letting Go
"How much do we need to let go of?" a friend asked one day.
"I'm not certain," I replied, "but maybe everything."
Letting go is a spiritual, emotional, mental, and physical process, a sometimes mysterious metaphysical process of releasing to God and...
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From Living Sober: Staying away from the first drink
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Expressions commonly heard in A.A. are "If you don't take that first drink, you can't get drunk" and "One drink is too many, but twenty are not enough."
Many of us, when we first began to drink, never wanted or took more than one or two drinks. But as time went on, we increased the number. Then, in late...
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Newbie
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I'm new here and just wanted to tell everyone hi.
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Daily Reflections Dec 5
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A NEW STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS He has been granted a gift which amounts to a new state of consciousness and being. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p 107 Many of us in A.A. puzzle over what is a spiritual awakening. I tended to look for a miracle, something dramatic and earth shattering. But what usual...
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It's good for your heart
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It's good for your heart.
"I know I've got some emotions up, just brewing right beneath the surface," Jake said one day. "I'm edgy, irritable, and definitely not centered. But I don't want to look. I don't want to go into the emotions. I don't like feelings. Whenever I give into them, I en...
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Starting Your Day Well
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December 4, 2006 Setting The Tone Starting Your Day Well
The choices you make upon waking can have a profound impact on your day. If, still drowsy, you hit the ground running, rushing to prepare yourself to face your worldly obligations, you will likely feel fatigued and overwhelmed for mos...
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a small accomplishment
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Well today we bought our tree and me and the kids decorated it tonight. First time in years I haven't been drunk doing it. feels good.
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Relationships & Justin Don't Mix
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I'm so confused. I went out on a date Saturday night with a girl in the program and things didn't go according to Justin's plans. Imagine that!
Right now I'm presently beating the hell out of myself. I am an idiot.
Don't get the wrong idea. I didn't do anything wrong. I just don't feel like...
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a door opens
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i put the word out among my friends that i was looking for a new place to live and today i look at a new apt. upstairs from some friends in recovery that bent over backwards to get me this place. everyone is so helpful and im so grateful. i gave my notice and now im terrified and excited at the same time. the new...
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Dr. Twerski's Sober Thought
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Quote for 6/8/2006 Everyone Can Learn from the Twelve Steps - The real difference between addicts and nonaddicts is that the former use chemicals and the latter do not. That is, the struggles and emotional problems addicts face are really no different from those experienced by anyone else. It also m...
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Geee
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quite a few on
everyone stickin at home because of the wheather?
Nice to see you all
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How's the weather?
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At 6:30 his morning in northern North Dakota, the temperate was 15 below zero F (-32C), but the wind has died down to about 5mph; a balmy winter morning compared to the -30 to -40 temps we are sure to see in January and February.
Hey Phil....where is that condo again, that you were m...
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Daily Reflections Dec 4
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INTO ACTION A.A. is more than a set of principles; it is a society of alcoholics in action. We must carry the message, else we ourselves can wither and those who haven't been given the truth may die. AS BILL SEES IT, p. 13 I desperately wanted to live, but if I was to succeed, I had to become active in our...
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There is a way to be a part of the action
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I want to feel myself part of things, of the great drift and swirl; not cut off, missing things, like being sent to bed early as a child. -- Joanna Field
Feeling apart from the action and always looking on; wanting attention, and yet afraid of being noticed; no doubt these are familiar memories to...
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dont fit in
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how can I not fit in at an aa meeting? I have been avoiding meetings as I hate the scenario when it comes to a break and everyone talks in twos and im always left out, I hate that, it takes me back to my lonelyness and makes me feel less than, could it be that im not even good enough to fit in at an aa meeting, if so w...
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How can I show my gentle side today?
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I wonder if the snow loves the trees and fields that it kisses them so gently. -- Lewis Carroll
In different times and places, clouds can produce snowflakes, raindrops, or even hailstones. Each one seems to have its own purpose and mood as it falls from the sky. The snowflake is the lightest of th...
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aa big book
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What is this but a miracle of healing? Yet its elements are simple. Circumstances made him willing to believe. He humbly offered himself to his Maker then he knew.
Even so has God restored us all to our right minds. To this man, the revelation was sudden. Some of us grow into it more slowly. But He has co...
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Shhhhhhhhhh
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Holy cow, I have never seen the board so quiet. Baby's sleeping, or has everyone gone ice fishing for the day? I've been absent, came in to check all the posts I knew I'd missed today, and there was a word from the UK. Everybody else just skipped out, eh? Well then, have a wonderful weekend, all, and hope by...
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Thought for the night...
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Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.
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To you guys in the west? I've had 5 fans on the front lawn pointed west..trying to blow this snow shit, back your way eh...
Didn't work...(smile)
Have a good night...
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Ain't It The Truth?
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It's been my experience, that it's usually one of the 3 L's...that gets
most Alcoholics to the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous.
"Liver......Lover....or Lawyer"
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Daily Reflections Dec 2
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SERENITY Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, . . . TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 106 As I continued to go to meetings and work the Steps, something began to happen to me. I felt confused because I wasn't sure what it was that I was feeling, and then I realized I was experi...
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