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Alcoholic Cardiomyopathy
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Hi everyone, I spent an hour with a cardiologist yesterday and had a few tests. I have been told that I may have alcoholic cardiomyopathy. I have a fair few symptoms and I'm going to have a scan of my heart and a 24 hour heart monitor fitted soon. It just shows that alcohol affects more than the liver, w...
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Four weeks
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Ok, so the first time I came on here I was only one day sober...now I am four weeks and have been to four f2f meetings close to my place. The first one I found bloody awful to be honest! I was SO nervous that just getting my ass in the door was like the hardest thing I have done in a very long time, if not ever... t...
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so close to a slip
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I spent a few hours with my sister today. She is my most reliable drinking partner. I had not seen her in approx seven wks, since I stopped drinking. While talking we discussed our drinking habits, past, present and future. We agreed that we are children of an alcoholic and had a few good laughs about our...
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I missed another anniversary
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Oh well...six months yesterday the 8th (for maybe the second or third time in a decade or so of trying) and still going strong. The way I feel most often is that alcohol is no longer a part of my life and the number of days sober does not strike me as something special I guess. Anyway...Just wanted to put...
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questions about AA
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How come the latest meetings are 8pm where I live? Is that when they end everywhere-what about imsomniacs lol... I was just curious to see if thats when the last meeting for the day is everywhere or if it is just where I live - maybe once my body gets use to sleeping without alcohol I will understand a bit...
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Each Day Is A New Start
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Each day is a new start. Each moment is a beginning. We do not have to wait until Monday to get back on the program or clean a closet or tackle a difficult report. We do not have to wait until tomorrow morning, either. Now is the moment to stop, to make a phone call, to begin whatever project we have been putti...
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Reading my Old Writings
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I dug up my anniversary writings - my log that I wrote in on my sobriety date for my first few years. I was kind of surprised to discover that it stopped when it did.... after 6 years. I have probably looked at it since then, but not added to it. My first year was pretty exhuberant writing I guess. Aside fr...
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My Daughter Wrote the Most Profound Thing....
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My oldest, 7 pictured in my avatar wrote me a little note: Daddy: Don't be who people want you to be. Be who you want to be. Holy SH*t!!! At 7, she is very wise! I'm still numb about it! I asked her last night where she got that from and she said "I don't know, I just wrote it." I...
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man I made a b--lls up
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I think im addicted to ebay!! my latest thing was I found someone from a magazine article selling a musical instrument cheap I decided to buy two off him and sell one on ebay to make my money back. well I sold it before it arrived at my house. the ebayer has paid me already and I have nothing to post him it may a...
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Rambling.
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As far as careers in alcoholism go I think I’ve been fortunate. I go to meetings and look around and see a lot of hard miles on a lot of tired faces. I think I was around sixteen when I realized I was an alcoholic. Drank until I was 22. Came up with an excuse and quit until I was 36. Got divorced and d...
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Live in the Solution
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Live in the solution and not the problem. Chaos, anger and resentment are the killers in our head. Once we concentrate on letting God and live in a solution, the defects of chaos, fear, anger and resentment leave our day. When we wake up, we have a self fufulling prophecy: Do I have a good day? Do I have a b...
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My first post
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Hey everyone! My name is Jamie and this is my first post. I've been reading over posts for a couple weeks now and I see how supportive everyone is. I quit drinking for eleven sleepless days/nights and decided this past sunday that I would be able to have a few beers. I am sure you see where this i...
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A poem
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Last week I threw out worrying;
it was getting old and in the way;
it kept me from being me;
I couldn't do things my way.
I threw out those Inhibitions;
they were just crowding me out;
Made room for my New Growth;
got rid of my old dreams and doubt.
I threw out a book on MY PAST
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Say Thanks For The Ordinary
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Don't overlook the wonder of the ordinary. The extraordinary, the amazing, the phenomenon are daily glorified in the movies, the news, and on television. Our senses become bombarded. We become addicted to drama. The only things that get our attention are the big, catastrophic, knee-jerking...
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Choice
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Choice: Today's word reminds us that our free will is what gives us power. Every day we are presented with numerous choices, each one affects us and those around us. The wise recognize the immense responsibility involved in decision making and choose carefully. They weigh the outcome of their d...
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insomnia-alone-frustrated
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hi guys, I'm at my wits end. For the last month I've had complete insomnia. Sometimes I can't get to sleep, even after working 12/hr shift. Other times like now I sleep for an hour off and on. I def drank most nights so sleep was not a problem, when I didn't I took sleeping pills. Can'...
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Not Always Easy~OM
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Meant To Be Some of our goals and dreams come to fruition so easily that it is as if an unseen hand has done much of the work for us. When this happens, we say it must have been meant to be. On the other hand, when dreams and goals require a tremendous amount of effort, we may interpret this to mean that our drea...
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To mtm105
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I explained it once in private mtm.... Now....Im going to do it on the board....and if anyone disagrees with it...they will let me know... If you want to criticize and judge AA....and surround our, sharing "experience strength and hope" with those that are reaching out for help.....I fo...
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An Article re: Alcoholic Relationships
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Why People Remain in Abusive Alcoholic Relationships The Stockholm Syndrome By Doug Kelley, CH, CSL July 2002 "Alcoholics don’t take spouses—they take hostages." —Diane G. at an Al-Anon meeting Those who have never experienced the turmoil of an abusive relationship find it difficul...
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quote on comfort
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"Comfort is the one thing you cannot get by looking for it. If you look for truth, you may find comfort in the end; if you look for comfort you will not get either comfort or truth - only soft soap and wishful thinking to begin with and, in the end, despair."-- C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity
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Honesty with Ourselves
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I have one request: may I never use my reason against truth. - -Elie Wiesel Honesty with ourselves is a great asset in every situation we confront. The skill to look reality square in the face and call it what it is takes us a good distance toward coping with it. However, many of us also have the skill to spi...
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Anniversary
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For the sake of anonymity... I won't say the date or the year. But right around now, this is when I got sober. Not my birthday, not a new years resolution, not a DUI or court order. There's absolutely nothing significant about the date, other than... I went to my first AA meeting. They said k...
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why i love AA
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like i have said before, i was raised in a drinking culture. i have decended from a long line of boozers on both sides of the family....i tried to cut down or quit on my own, it was futile. when i finally came into the doors of aa they truly spoke my "language". the language of the heart....the bi...
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those off days
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do you ever get the impression that people ignore you if your having a bad day? When I was doing well and chatty a certain person would talk to me, just recently I have not done very well and make a mistake in a presentation at college this person is being off with me now, I am trying to just relax with it to be h...
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Daily Reflections Feb 7
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A PATH TO FAITH True humility and an open mind can lead us to faith, and every A.A. meeting is an assurance that God will restore us to sanity if we rightly relate ourselves to Him. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 33 My last drunk had landed me in the hospital, totally broken. It was then that I was a...
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Off my chest
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Hi everyone, been absent awhile, NORO virus! Yuck! Anyway here's something I want to share because I know the burden will shrink in size. My parents died when I was young. I spent many years in foster care (10). When I was thirteen I moved in with a recovering alcoholic who then adopted me at age seve...
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Canuck thoughts for the day...
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Don't argue with an idiot; people watching may not be able to tell the difference. I saw a woman wearing a sweat shirt with "Guess" on it. So I said "Implants?" She hit me. Now that food has replaced sex in my life, I can't even get into my own pants. Marriage changes passio...
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They never showed up eh...
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The Chicago bears musta been snowed in yesterday.....cause they never showed up...in Miami... Coulda been all the rain also...they didnt wanna get their fur wet... Today...the City of Chicago is on fire....and will exsist no more... And thats the news for this morning...from "2 feet of snow...
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Happiness
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Whoever is happy will make others happy, too. -- Anne Frank Anne Frank had good reason to be unhappy, full of fear, and deeply discouraged. Years of her life were spent in a small apartment hiding from the Nazis who wanted to destroy her and her family. Yet even in this little hiding place she had happine...
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in and out of sobriety?!
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Hello everyone, I read often and learn alot from this board. I am struggling with a decision. My AH has been in and out of sobriety for 2 years. Really mostly in but the outs are devastating. It seems he overdrank for many years but there were no consequences and now he's mostly sober but one binge-...
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This sobriety stuff is pretty fricken cool!!
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Easy money. I won $50 from my little brother today because he fell for the hype and felt like he HAD to drink and lose our standing wager on stupidbowl Sunday. (What is that anyways? Why superbowl? What’s so super about it? Why not super “plate”? Super “carafe”? Super salt-shaker? Anyhow- I told him I’d...
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Today Is A Clean Slate
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You start preparing when you're thirty for the person you'll be at eighty. -- Janice Clark We can't get away from ourselves, at least not entirely. Who we were at ten and twenty and forty and fifty remain as threads in our tapestries. Many of us shudder because some details of our personal...
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Daily Reflections Feb 6
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A RALLYING POINT Therefore, Step Two is the rallying point for all of us. "Whether agnostic, atheist, or former believer, we can stand together on this Step. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 33 I feel that A.A. is a God-inspired program and that God is at every A.A. meeting. I see, believe,...
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Case sensitive
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I realize through out my work nite, um kinda hard to explain.
I'm pretty easy going and full of life, my co-workers are a great bunch of people to work with. We all have our days and well ya know that goes without saying. I love my job and really dont' complain about much, figure certain things go with t...
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Daily Reflections Feb 5
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A GLORIOUS RELEASE "The minute I stopped arguing, I could begin to see and feel. Right there, Step Two gently and very gradually began to infiltrate my life. I can't say upon what occasion or upon what day I came to believe in a Power greater than myself, but I certainly have that belief now. To...
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Greetings from the UK
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Hi all, I'm new to this forum stuff but not to AA. I have been sober, a day at a time, for quite a number of days now!!!! Visited California (Santa Barbara) last October and got myself to a few meetings - was blown away by the love and sense of belonging - can go anywhere in the world and find friends who un...
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AA for Losers? We Think Not!
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This was in another thread here. "In the past 6 months I went to a AA meeting and there was nothing but losers and drug addicts," Wow. That's a statement...Anyway... When I was in my early twenties and full of the infinite wisdom that consumes many of us in that deluded stage, my younger...
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not enough meetings
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So I've been in Nebraska 2 weeks and have only made it to one meeting... things have been so busy since I got here, and we have to go into town to get to meetings... my boyfriend says it's hard to get to many meetings living out here on a farm. Hopefully I can get to one soon, I really need to get a sp...
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The Wisdom In An Experience
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We should be careful to get out of an experience only the wisdom that is in it - and stay there, lest we be like the cat that sits down on a hot stove lid. She will never sit down on a hot stove lid again... but also, she will never sit down on a cold one any more. -- Mark Twain "Last night I asked for help, but...
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Differences
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Differences . . . with no hidden cutting edge. The respect and dignity a couple show each other set the table from which they are nourished for all other activities in their lives. Any feeling can be expressed in respectful or disrespectful ways. Anger is one of the most difficult to express respectfu...
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WAH
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Whiners Anonymous Whiners Anonymous Help (WAH!) Do you whine, complain, or snivel? Are you a grumpy old fart? Do you seek out others in taverns or internet chat rooms to whine about things? Do people ever tell you to "like it or lump it"? Are you asked, "What are you crying about?"...
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On The Lighter Side..:)
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Randy, the painter, often thinned his paint to make it go further. The Baptist Church decided to restore its biggest building. Randy put in a low bid and got the job. He bought the paint, and, yes, thinned it with turpentine. Well, Randy was painting away, the job nearly completed, when suddenly ther...
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Honest humility
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"... whoever exalts himself will be humbled, and the one who humbles himself will be exalted." -Matthew 23:12 "In his parable about the Pharisee and the tax collector praying in the temple, Jesus is stressing the importance of a humble heart when it comes to prayer. At the same tim...
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can any 1 reccommend
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some nice calming classical music for when my mum comes over for tea
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Rejecting Shame...
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Authentic, legitimate guilt is the feeling or thought that what we did is not okay. It indicates that our behavior needs to be corrected or altered, or an amend needs to be made. Shame is an overwhelming negative sense that who we are isn't okay. Shame is a no-win situation. We can change our behavi...
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Today I'm The Best I Can Be
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Next year I'm going to be better than I am now, but today I'm the best I can be. It is quite possible to waste a lot of time and energy trying to make impossible changes. Many of us, inspired by the dynamics of the program and driven more by enthusiasm than prudence, strike out on missions that cann...
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Laura's Update
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Hello, I've been coming to this forum for a little less than two weeks. I wrote my first post a little over a week ago and have appreciated reading and responding since. It's been just about four days since I last had a drink. I know I still need to go to meetings. I'm still so scared. For the fi...
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Anger management (circa 500 BC)
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"Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned." Siddhartha Gautama Buddha
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Daily Reflections Feb 3
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FILLING THE VOID We needed to ask ourselves but one short question. "Do I now believe, or am I even willing to believe, that there is a Power greater than myself?" As soon as a man can say that he does believe, or is willing to believe, we emphatically assure him that he is on his way. ALCOHOLICS...
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Ouch
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Avoiding a Critical Spirit Kevin Offner, InterVarsity graduate staff One of the vices I hate acknowledging in me is a critical spirit. I want to put the best spin on myself, of course, so I give this poisonous quality nice names like “reflection,” and “being properly analytical.” Here are a few sn...
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