Alcoholics Anonymous
Members Login
Username 
 
Password 
    Remember Me  
Post Info TOPIC: Hello Again


Newbie

Status: Offline
Posts: 2
Date:
Hello Again
Permalink  
 


I am back...never really left...just didn't post. Gave up on others, mostly myself. Used this board to vent and unload and caused unnecessary turmoil just because I wasn't handling things in my life....didn't know how to handle things in my life. So when someone here disagreed with me, called me on my own stuff, I got extremely defensive, controversial, and and unecessarily attacked. It is not who I want to be and feel I could be. Very immature and childish.

I deleted my last account (one of many, because in my childish mindset, have had several account names, would attack, and when felt attacked, would delete them and reopen new accounts after I had a cooling off period.) I made and lost a few friends I had on this board...couldn't handle the least bit of criticism, didn't like being told what I should do and wanted to do what I wanted to do.

Almost every day I have still come to this board and have appreciated the postings. It has made me feel a part of something anyway. Unfortunately, I have not been able to get back in the meetings. I kept relapsing and got too ashamed and embarrassed. I know that is not a good enough excuse and is only an excuse. I do hope that I will one day soon, be able to go back to them and get over feeling the way I do. I have, over the last months...well, I guess it is over 2 years now...been able to get days, several weeks, even a month or more of sobriety under my belt.

I promise that I will try very hard going forward to use this board responsibly, to try and not take every little thing so seriously and most of all to not post things which end up hurting anyone else and making me look like an idiot.

Grace

 

 



__________________


MIP Old Timer

Status: Offline
Posts: 12357
Date:
Permalink  
 

I, for one, am glad to see you back ... I've missed you and worried and prayed for your well being ...

Each of us have different pasts, but our common goal is to learn how to live sober, happily ... and to learn HOW to 'give back' for what we have been so freely given ...

This shows a great deal of maturity on your part ... I know, cause I was like a little kid who pouted here when things didn't go the way I thought they should ... Patience, tolerance, and perseverance ... are a few of the keys to long-term sobriety ...



Love you and God Bless,
Pappy



__________________

'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'



Newbie

Status: Offline
Posts: 2
Date:
Permalink  
 

Thank you, Pappy. I have missed you as well.


__________________


MIP Old Timer

Status: Offline
Posts: 1570
Date:
Permalink  
 

Welcome back to the discussion forum, c57. This is a good space for all alcoholics recovering of mind and body.

There are many here who share their ESH and, as Pappy points out, we have common goals of sobriety and a happy lives.

It's good to sometimes reflect on the past--so we can better understand ourselves and our actions from a broader perspective.

But the most important time in our lives is the present--today. We can live in the now, to achieve our common goals...

__________________

First, deal with the things that might kill you.

 



Newbie

Status: Offline
Posts: 1
Date:
Permalink  
 

Hey..welcome back :)

__________________
Page 1 of 1  sorted by
 
Quick Reply

Please log in to post quick replies.