I used to have a lot to say. At parties or gatherings, I had to make sure everyone was listening to the stories or jokes or opinions I had, because, dont you know, I knew everything. And after a few drinks, I became the obnoxious attention seeker people avoided. I was so self-absorbed, that I didnt even notice I was not getting invited to things, and by the end of my drinking, I didnt care anymore.
In early sobriety, I couldnt wait to give my opinions. When I was called on to share, Im sure many people rolled their eyes as I told them why alcoholism wasnt really a disease, and why I was there to just dry out and learn how to drink normally again. Keep coming back, was a phrase I heard often. Finally, my sponsor suggested I listen more and share my thoughts with him one on one after meetings. After many inventories, much Step work, and a lot of time, I understood the wisdom of this advice.
Im a completely changed man today. I am sincerely interested in other peoples journey and experiences, and today I look to be of service whenever I can. I understand the value of kindness, and I look for opportunities to practice love and tolerance. I also appreciate the gift of remaining quiet and letting others express themselves. I love to listen to their stories and learn from their unique points of view.
Today, Id rather listen than share, and as such, both myself and others enjoy the interaction more.
