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Working on day 4, 3 days under my belt.  To the layperson, that may not seem like much.  But, to us, every day is a battle.  I've had SEVERAL day 1 and 2s.  Not many 3 and 4s.  Most ever was two weeks.  No stranger to falling off the proverbial wagon - I have a Frequent Faller card that is very worn with many punch holes.  But, I am thankful.  For the hope and clarity I have today.  Feeling better, sleeping better, eating better.  My mind tried to wander about what would happen tomorrow.  But, it truly is one day at a time - that is enough to tackle.  I need to concentrate and work on today.  Yesterday, a trigger was hit.  A huge trigger.  I would have normally done a double back flip off the wagon into a pool of misery.  But, I didn't.   I went home, cooked and ate well, and worked my ass off and stayed busy until I was too tired to do anything else.

God, as I know him, is good.  He has given me the strength I asked for - I can't do it alone.  Tried that and that dog don't hunt, as we say in the South.  This is so much better than waking up in a haze with liquid amnesia.  So much better than being an asshole to the ones I love.  Better than waking up and realizing I drank the rent money away.  I sit here and wonder how I can ever let myself get in that death-wish rut again?  This is so much better.  But, we all know - cunning, baffling, powerful this disease is.

Thank you to the God I know and thank you to those brothers and sisters who crawl out of this with me everyday.  We are wounded healers.  That's how this works.



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Good to hear from you Deskdad, ... yeah, I had one of those 'Frequent Faller' cards too ... threw it away 8 years ago and decided to stay in the program ... can't dwell on what 'might have been' ... just start each day pray'n that just for today, I will not take a drink ... it works when a person desires it to ...



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First, welcome back.

It would be good to ask yourself - knowing what you know about what you were doing / not doing in previous attempts at sobriety, and knowing the results you got from that,

what should you do differently this time?

And I would encourage you to get a good sponsor who has a lot of experience with AA, sobriety, and the 12 steps, to help you answer this question. It's pretty important.



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G'day Shawn . Welcome Back . Put the whip away .Yes some things you may have done . But , now , are you not "Trying" to do better.

One Day at a Time . Some of us get this quickly , some slowly . You ARE Helping me already . You are reminding me , as an alcoholic . I

can Not successfully drink safely . Ok , I am over 20yrs from my last drink . BUT I Need to remember where I came from . As there is a Very

famous saying, "If we forget the past , we Are bound to repeat it". Looking forward to hearing/reading more of Your Progress.

Just for Today.



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Hi Deskdad...congrats on your days of staying away from alcohol and thank you for your share.


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Thanks for your share I'll try for day 4

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Welcome to MIP Alison, ... glad you're here ... check in as often as you like ... we're in 'n out all day here ...



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Hi Deskdad, I am new on day 10 been binging for 35 years the first 4 days were my hardest, I kept busy and went to my first meetings, met some real people I hope and pray for a recovery and I hope to respond to someone 's post with 20 years under my belt . Good luck , Bunchie

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