I was reading todays quote out of the little book I was given and it really applies to me...it said when starting recovery we may not know who we are, how to act, what to say or even how to dress. I feel like most of my life I have used alcohol to build up my confidence level to get through everything! Now im so scared and lost, I can't see how I'm going to be able to do anything! I have had a nice lady trying to call me to check in from a meeting and I'm terrified to call her back! I don't know what to say, I feel like a complete idiot!
Thanks for posting a comment about this. Ah yes, I remember that feeling well from early sobriety! When I was new I felt like I had no idea how to even have a basic conversation with someone in AA. It was recommended to me to just make the call and ask how the OTHER person was doing and just listen. Then it was recommended that if I had questions about AA stuff that I didn't understand to go ahead and ask them. Maybe ask them what other meetings they liked, and maybe arrange to meet them there. It didn't take long at all for things like this to start feeling really easy and simple. Just try to think of all this as a new adventure and get curious about it and see what happens.
BTW - really glad to hear that you've been getting to some meetings!
Glad to hear you're making some contacts in the program! The person who invited you to call probably remembers what it was like in the early days and understands the awkwardness. If you start out with a casual chat, you might find out you have things in common...and the conversation will go wherever it goes until it gets to more serious topics. I would suggest to call her back, then just go with the flow! She won't steer you wrong. She wants to see you succeed and is willing to guide you. It will be good for both of you! Best wishes!!
Thanks guys! I'm feeling pretty good this afternoon even going to try to go to my first meeting alone... Thinking all these what ifs in my head but going to just force myself in to that room!
The serenity prayer was suggested to me in early recovery. I cannot imagine what would have happened to me in the mental state that I came in.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Hope you made it to that meeting ... it's not so bad, huh ??? ... I remember being very 'uptight' early on ... didn't want to go but was afraid if I didn't, I'd wind up 'passed out' drunk again ... don't worry, the uneasy feelings you have now will pass ... and if you stay with AA long enough, you'll come to know a happiness and love you never thought possible ... trust me ...
I wish for you the very best ... if you have questions or concerns, please let us know ... again, we've all been in your shoes ...
Love ya and God Bless, Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
Glad to see you went to the meeting. I remember my first solo meeting, I was a nervous wreck but by the time it was overi was relaxed and laughing with new friends. Stay strong!
