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Today was one of those days...

It was a great day, actually!  I got to start moving into the new house.  I have a little finishing work to do and I'm a crew of one.  I'm building a loft so I have some space to call my own... A place to meditate and relax.  I'll probably also use it as my bedroom.  I had just got back with some lumber and plywood and started getting busy.  Long story short, watch that first step- it's a doozie!!  I had a simple misstep and broke my ankle.  I normally laugh it off and continue working and I have to admit the sound of me bouncing all over the wood floor reminded of cartoon sound effects and I was laughing out loud. the company worker asked if I was all right, I said I was fine and hobbled to the steps to inspect the damage.  The floor is fine but my ankle is broken.  The rod went through the skin, I stopped laughing.  This is the foot they wanted to amputate when I got back stateside.  I wanted to keep as many original parts as possible.  The Worker had Bourbon in his truck.  I politely declined and while I felt i was being a wuss I also felt empowered...I said NoThanks.

I remembered alcohol as a painkiller but only temporarily and the long term problems that go with it arent worth it.  I feel a physical and mental strength in my program to turn that down.  I remember it does kill pain but until today I hadn't given it a thought.  The meds the doc gave me make me sick and I won't use them so ill just deal with this with help from my HP.  I think it's the best choice for me.  Lousy timing though!  The old me (pre-sobriety) would have drank the bourbon and lots of it.  

this type of empowerment is huge to me!  I have the tools of the Program to strengthen me and remembrances of the past to help me stay on the good road to the future.  The devil on one shoulder told me I had plenty of reasons to drink.  The angel on the other side kicked him right off of there reminding me that for ME there are NEvER good reasons to drink.  Now during my involuntary rest time I'll have lots of time to think (but not over-think) everything. 

My lesson for the day is not all slips are planned.  Some can happen out of the blue.  I'm thankful to my HP for giving me the wisdom to know the difference. 

Jerricka (the klutz)

 



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Good work Jerricka! I found the big reasons to drink were easier to negotiate. Those little ones sneak up on you though. Not trying to make you nervous or paranoid because as long as you have the honestly, willingness, and open mindedness that you seem to display here, you will triumph over both little sneaky triggers and bigger more obvious ones.

I am so sorry to hear about your ankle. Take care and get well!

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Morn'n Klutz, er, uh, Jerricka, ... LOL ...

I'm so sorry you went (are) going through that ... It reminds me of a lot of the pain and side effects of going through cancer treatment ... and my attitude was much like yours ... several times I gave some serious thought of seeking relief from the pain through alcohol ... I'd play the 'tape' back though and recall where that always led me ... the program has given me such a good life to live and look forward to, I'd be a fool to screw that up ... good for you to hold true to your values in the program ...

Wish I were close by to help you out ... (being a decent electrician and carpenter) ... it's some I do here in the neighborhood when I'm physically able, because I enjoy it so much ...

On my AA medallion it says 'To Thine Own Self Be True' ... Hold to that and you'll be just fine ... Thanks for sharing what a little faith in a 'HP' can do for us when we are caught 'off guard' in this 'day-to-day' journey ...


Love ya and God Bless,
Pappy



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Sorry to read that you broke your ankle, Coogi. Hope you can manage.
Do you plan on advising the doc that the prescribed meds did not work properly?

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