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A 5th Step
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Aloha my MIP family...just had to share a warp event from this morning.  I have been taking an A/A (cross addicted) person to my morning AA by the Bay meetings both Saturday and Sunday versions.  He doesn't have a whole lot of time; some and the desire and willingness.  This morning just before I picked him up I call his number; his name is the same as my eldest son and guess who I got??...yeppers...eldest son who groggily mentioned he was on the mainland and groggily was an understatement.  My son knew who was calling as I mentioned "I'm out side are you ready for the meeting" and then "Oh it's you...how you doing?"  Never did understand the answer to that question so I hung up and made the other connection.  Out to my truck comes the "other" same named guy and I knew he was under the influence.  He got in the truck not making eye contact and I asked him what went on to which he responded "I screwed up".  Okay nothing I can fix and I can still wear the shoes with memories from my own past and added to that 36 years of recovery.  He was deeply into self pity and hate which of course is a sucky subject which I don't do well with either by myself on in a group with my HP just loving it when I cut it short and get into the growth side of our program.  I get to share with him from both sides of the fence...Al-Anon and AA and am careful about what I share and my motives and connection with my HP.  Took him into the group and left him to his own choices on how he wanted to use the meeting and then took him home.  Reminded him of stuff one being you cannot do this "recovery" thing by yourself.  If you try it will be as if you are using a practicing drunk to manage your recovery and I've never seen that work.   He left me with a hug and we will repeat the process tomorrow God willing.   God is always willing right? Its our willingness that brings us to the good stuff.  Letting go and letting God as I stay willing and honest myself.  Took some of my recovery library to the meeting to share with those who don't have as much and one of the members opened up a gifted "As Bill Sees It" and pointed to a well wishing from a past sponsor and his alcoholic wife from back in 83 and I had to laugh out loud at the memories of our relationship.   Funny story...may I share it with you?

 

My sponsor's name was Jim and his wife's name was Marlene.  Jim and I were in Al-Anon and she in AA.  How she out lived his efforts to get and keep her sober no one will ever know and then thru the will of HP right?   Anyway I want to do a 5th step and I agree that it was okay that Marlene was in the kitchen cooking while we did.  Thing was there where times I would share a particular "wrong doing" in the dining room with Jim and Marlene could be heard laughing in the kitchen.  We got thru it and when I was done and Jim asked if I was satisfied with the process and I said yes...he replied enthusiastically "Good...lets go get a beer"!!  I had a huge reaction and can still here Marlene laugh...because she knew I wasn't only an Al-Anoner and could also use a meeting or two in the "other" room.  I would not make that other room for another 5 years and was alcohol free for 9 years before I got there.  Sounds weird??   No so much when you understand this disease and how cunning, powerful and baffling and patient it is.  I am a qualified double...when I entered Al-Anon my skin color was putrid yellowish/green and five years later returned to my natural tan.  I came to understand.

 

Maybe my eldest son will get that copy of As Bill Sees it....hmmmmm??  Mahalo for all of your ESH.   With humility and gratitude.  (((((MIP))))) smile 



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