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I know that I am completely powerless over alcohol. I never have been a one or two drinks person. I drank until I was loaded. Just feeling a buzz from the effects of alcohol was not enough for me. I didn't know how anyone could just stop after a couple. I used to think, "why bother drinking at all?" if one only drank such a "small" amount and I actually remember thinking something was wrong with THEM while I was in complete denial that I had a problem. I just liked to drink. Also, I used to believe that I wasn't hurting anyone with my drinking and got quite offended at the mere notion that my drinking was causing anyone else any harm. Even when my problems started to grow and my life became unmanageable I was still trying to justify my excessive drinking with thoughts like "Leave me alone", "It's my life", I'm an adult and I can do what I want to do".

After so many years of me bs'ing myself, I had finally had enough and was ready and willing to admit I was powerless and my life had become unmanageable (...my life was a total wreak; I could not control my drinking and drinking had become my life--that's all I wanted to do; my problems were growing in frequency and getting worse). So I attended AA meetings--lots of them. I got a sponsor and worked the Steps.

As I result of doing the above, my life has changed completely! I have seen the promises coming true in my life. My thinking was not going to change by my own doing. It took believing in a Power greater than myself to help me. It is a daily program. Just like my drinking was daily, I have to work the program and live it every day. I was and still am sick and there is no known cure for alcoholism. The only thing that will help me is that I continue to take my "medicine" every day so that I stay in the recovery process. I continue to pray every day, to meditate and to take daily inventory and make any amends right away.  I understand that my thinking is still that of an alcoholic and will trick me into thinking I don't have to hold myself responsible for my own thoughts and emotions. I now realize that it is thoughts like the ones I had in the past which gave me excuses to continue to drink and I have to protect myself from them.  While I still am powerless over alcohol, I have more power and my life is more manageable because not only am I staying sober, also things just don't bother me as much. Also, as part of my daily "healing" program,  it is imperative for my sobriety that I try and help other alcoholics every day, which I try to do.

I hope this helps another alcoholic.

Love, Peace and Blessings for the day.

 

 



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It works - it really does.

Thanks for the share AABB4MeMe. This disease is cunning, baffling, powerful, and permanent. It's always good to be reminded of what I'm supposed to be doing to recover and stay recovered from a hopeless state of mind and body!

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Thanks for this great share!  Yes...it will help others.

Blessings, Mike D.



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