"Oh, God, help me! If you get me out of this mess, I'll never screw up again." This was our favorite prayer before we entered the Program. We were always bargaining with God.
We have learned new prayers and a new way to talk and listen to our Higher Power. We are seeking God's will for us. Many of us had to learn how to pray. We began with very simple prayers: "Thank you, God, for helping me today."
We learn that prayer helps us with our faulty dependence on people, places, and things by giving us the insight and strength to rearrange our priorities. Prayer doesn't change God, but it changes those who pray.
Today in my prayers, I will seek my Higher Power's will for me. I no longer bargain with God
Thanks, Larry. Yes, I prayed in the past for God to hear my request and deliver. It was prayer for MY finite expectations. Today, with the help of the AA program I pray for him to reveal more of HIS will for me and acceptance of his will for me.
Prayers sure do change with time, this is true. My prayers lately are just telling God how I honestly FEEL and think.... from the heart... even when it is selfish, and silly, or even destructive... I tell Him my thoughts (which my HP already knows).... but I find it is the best way for me to grow in intimacy with my HP as I never could before. I am not trying to be Holier Than Thou with my God. I am not trying to "show him my best side" or be intellectual with him, which I did for years, because I didn't know any other way.
Prayers like, "God, I just don't CARE today.... and I WANT to be lazy and rebellious... help me to CARE about this today....." are really helpful as of late. This is just where I'm at right now.
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~Your Higher Power has not given you a longing to do that which you have no ability to do.