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Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it.
Larry,------------------- The Alcoholic And Resentment
The alcoholic has a vault-like memory for every injustice they feel they've suffered and they will harbor a great deal of resentment toward a lot of things and a lot of people. It's not uncommon in treatment sessions to hear them talk about people or situations from twenty or thirty years in the past that they still feel resentment over. In a good treatment program, uncovering and resolving resentment from the past should be a major area of focus. Once you listen to enough alcoholics and addicts describe their past, it's not hard to understand why they grew up holding such incredible resentment, and why they sought to medicate those feelings with alcohol and drugs. As they say, resentment is like taking poison and waiting for the other person to die.
The alcoholic has a vault-like memory for every injustice they feel they've suffered
I totally agree! I may 'deal' with my resentments but sometimes given a trigger (or invariably in an argument!) they will re- surface like sea to air missiles with incredible power - shocking me too!
Yes I truly have this alcoholic trait!!
AGO wrote:somehow, someday I will get you for this Larry
somehow, someday I will get you for this Larry
I alone can do it...but I can't do it alone.
AGO wrote:somehow, someday I will get you for this Larry It's true, my memory for injustice is unparalleled, and this is from a guy that can quote thousands and thousands of books verbatim, some read 30-35 years agoit's awful
somehow, someday I will get you for this Larry It's true, my memory for injustice is unparalleled, and this is from a guy that can quote thousands and thousands of books verbatim, some read 30-35 years agoit's awful
Larry_H wrote: AGO wrote:somehow, someday I will get you for this Larry It's true, my memory for injustice is unparalleled, and this is from a guy that can quote thousands and thousands of books verbatim, some read 30-35 years agoit's awfulAndrew, We are so alike in our thinking. There goes my thinking I am unique right out the window and you are to blame. (LOL)Larry,--------------Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: "What! You, too? Thought I was the only one."-- C. S. Lewis Funny, that made me laughthen it made me start thinking about the whole "unique" thing we have going on, billions of people all running around, thinking "I am a unique and beautiful snowflake" and thinking to myself after some years in AA, "I am finally just like all of you....and that makes me....unique"You ever heard your story? like spot on?I did.....although I was an alcoholic, I was a special alcoholic, and although the rules applied, for me, there was a bend in the space time continuum because I really was special, even as an alcoholic in AA...So I was at this Mens Stag on Birthday night, maybe 10 years into the deal, and "toofless Shane" got up to share, he was below average in looks, talent, and never had a car, and if he got a double wide he was living above his means, he was missing half his teeth and had no game but with another ten years of sobriety, maybe some dental work, and a decent haircut he could aspire to white trash status (these are all my judgments right?)He opens his mouth and I come out, all my arrogance and stupidity, all my pride and specialness, literally verbatim, I'm sitting there reeling except I am thinking to myself he has no reason to feel this vast superiority and pride, this vast uniqueness, these special feelings of entitlement, all the things I deserved because of my special talents, wit, IQ, rugged good looks and raw sex appeal....Messed me up for weeks and changed who I was and how I viewed myself, I had been completely unaware I had been secretly carrying around this vast ego, this pride filled ballon, this secret great opinion of myself and the overwhelming double standard, literally unaware until I heard it come out of someone else's mouth.....and the truth was, I was just as entitled as him to have this vast great opinion of myself....which was zero, divided by 2unique....ignorance is bliss, but if that's true, why aren't I happier, I keep getting stupider.....