Hi Wave off the Coast,Interesting, I am on the California Coast line, but looked and you did not state, what state you live in.Anyway on the subject of Blackout, my own experience was that it came sort of at the end of my drinking career, I had finally given up on myself, as to the AA Program, thought I had proven to myself I was never going to make it....and then most of the drinking I did was very heavy 24/7 drinking, blacking out almost everyday, twice a day, drank til 2 or 3, and rather than napping I was really blacking out, and mostly in a sleeping mode, and then would wake up and repeat the process and go to bed.But prior to that I had many experiences of blacking out, and MikeF qualified them into two groups, I recall them as a complete loss of all inhabitions, dont want to go into the rather endless embarrassing and sometime humiliating things that others would tell me I did,But just like MikeF wrote, I hope you will see this is a big wake up call, and get yourself into the AA program, just as soon as you can......very seious stuff, could not agree more.....and we do change and things slowly change without the use of Alcohol daily in our lives, and we begin to live a pretty good life, but there is work to be done.....Finding someone to Sponsor you and see to it that you work the 12 Steps of the AA Program, the vigous working of all these steps is the way up and out of the Disease of Alcoholism..Hope so much that we hear back from you, soon too, Seems you were worried about covering up or getting out of what you told your girlfriend......that is a far cry from wondering how you drove that car into the other car, killing the people inside.....thats the other end of the spectrum.....The above said grim writing would require only one thing, an alcoholic blackout....happens every day of the year daily in this country.....so please take this as seriously as your life depends on it, for you life just might depend on you stopping before it is too late....Thanks for coming in to this site, and please stay around and get to know us....that is my hope for you,Toni, wave off the California Coastline.. Hi Wave, after reading all the responses it occurred to me that I was leaving a lot out, about my Blacking out twice a day, yes I would end up blacking out on a couch, or kitchen table or sometimes in bed, but what I was leaving out was that when I woke up, no one was there to tell me how mustard got all over the hardwood floors, or that electric stove burner was left on, in High....or why I was dressed like I was going out to a galla affair in the middle of the day, I do have to say I did always feel very lucky, when I would look out my window and see that my car looked like I had not moved it....that was always a GREAT relief....just sheer luck.so hope you have tried to take in what others have said.and will join us here.Hugs, on Monday, May 10th, 2010wrote that cause it is really great to start the day knowing what day and time it is....Toni
I can't explain myself to others because I have no memory after a blackout of what I did.What is an alcohol blackout? This is not the same thing as passing out when you have had too much to drink. Passing out very much resembles sleeping. No, an alcoholic blackout is when a person has had a lot to drink and they go into this state of mind where they can no longer remember anything that they are doing, but they are still moving around, conversing with people, and possibly causing all sorts of problems.
Normally the human brain has the ability to keep recording whatever is happening in your life....whether you are hearing things, seeing things, tasting things....it all goes on the record. You might not remember every little detail but your brain actually has it all locked in there. Technically, you could bring these hidden memories out with hypnosis if you had to.
With an alcohol blackout blackout this is not the case. Nothing is going on permanent record. The brain stops recording new information, so everything that occurs is lost forever to the alcoholic who is in a blackout. They can only recollect the experience as it is told to them by other people. This usually happens the next day when they find themselves waking up in a strange place, wondering how they got there, and what exactly they did the night before. It is at this point that they will generally call up their friends who they were with the night before and start asking questions. Their friends usually say something along the lines of: "Do you realize what you did last night?!" At this point the alcoholic usually does not want to know, because horrible, embarrassing and frequently dangerous behaviors generally happen during these types of episodes.
If you are at the point of experiencing these sorts of things, then you might want to step back and take a good hard look at your drinking. Normal people do not black out from drinking, ever. This is because a normal person will pass out long before they black out. If you are blacking out from drinking too much alcohol then it means that your tolerance to alcohol is all messed up. Technically you should pass out and appear to be sleeping long before you get to the point of blacking out. If you are blacking out on a regular basis then it means your drinking has gotten way out of hand, and you need to do something about it. Larry,---------------I did not sleep on my lawn last night
WaveOffTheCoast wrote:How do you explain to others/yourself who you become when you've blacked out?
How do you explain to others/yourself who you become when you've blacked out?
We can just live. How good it is.